HUNGRY HEARTS

Hello everyone

I have a very serious problem that requires urgent treatment so readers help me. Please comment if you have a solution or a remedy to my problem.

About 5 years ago I had two abortions. The second time I was a bit too far gone. I was in my 20th week when I had it because I didn't find on time that I was pregnant. So after wards I had to deal with breast milk like I was nursing. I battled that for 8 weeks before I got some tablets to dry the milk.

The terrible thing is that after this battle I noticed a difference in my breast. My left breast went flat while the other one remained firm.

For five years I have lived with this deformity in shame. For five years I have not dated because I have become ashamed of my body. I have tried everything, exercise, breast firming n lifting creams nothing is working. Because of this I can not date or let any man touch me, so I became a born again. I had the perfect excuse to say no to guys. But a young pastor is interested in me. I tried all I could to rebuff him, still he remained, I even said no sex before marriage and he agreed. We have been dating for a while now.  If he wonders while I would not let him touch me even slightly, I don't know for he has not complained.
Now he is talking marriage. I want to get married but I need to correct my deformity before then.

Please readers What do I do to correct this?

AMBER ROMANCE

WHEN THE HEART KNOWS


CHAPTER FOUR





The few days that followed, Nma plunged herself into her work. She had found out that only that could relax her and make her forget Uche Okoha and his forgotten interest in her. Sometimes she would become very angry to think that he could just come into her life when he wanted and leave when it suited him. Was that how the rich behaved? She wondered. So they thought they could play with a woman heart just to get rid of boredom caused by their idle lifestyle. That was exactly what Uche did to her, he came into her life with a promise of excitement and romance and all of a sudden, his interest shifted.
But hadn’t he told her the truth when they first met that he was not looking for a whirlwind romance. His interest was in introducing her to his mother. Even that promise he didn’t fulfill or did but it made no impact to her business life. The woman took one look at her and hated her. She still wondered why. She wished she had never set her eyes on him, she wished she hadn’t gone out with him and she wished they hadn’t shared that last kiss, even the thought of it caused goose bumps on her body. She had never been kissed like that before. The kiss made her come alive; it made her aware of her body like never before. She never knew one could get so much pleasure from a kiss. She was woman enough to know that he was affected by that kiss like she was. She stopped at that thought, but if he was, why did his interest in her fade? Maybe he didn’t find the kiss that exciting but she could have sworn he did. She shook her head in self pity. It was no good; Uche was a mystery she would never unravel. He was the kind of a man no woman should attempt to understand. One minute he was attracted to her and the next he ignored her like she bored him. She stood up from her table. And just then her assistant came in Helen. Helen was a very beautiful dark complexion girl who didn’t know how she looked, so often she was careless with her looks. But no matter how careless she was, she never ceased to exude that aura of warmth and peace. She was only twenty five and she acted so matured. Helen was the type of girl she should be hanging out with. Not the foolish rich girls who thought that all the problems of this world could be solved with their daddy’s millions. Nma smiled at Helen.
“Good afternoon, I just wanted to check if you want something, I was on my way to lunch” Helen spoke
Always like Helen to look out for her. Nma thought. Helen thought she worked too hard so she took it upon herself to remind her of some necessities like food which she tended to forget while working.
“Very kind of you Helen, I nearly forgot and considering that I didn’t have breakfast, I am now very hungry”
“You work too hard Nma, slow down a bit okay, so what would you have?”
“I am so hungry that I cannot wait for you so I would rather join you” Nma smiled and got up from her chair. She took a minute to powder her nose, as she was doing that, she looked up at Helen and decided she was going to coach the girl on beauty tips.
“So what powder do you use?”
Helen looked confused for a moment but smiled.
“I am not like you Nma, it doesn’t matter if I use one or not. I am too plain to do justice to it”
“You give yourself little credit babe, you are one of the most beautiful dark complexion girl I have ever seen”
Helen smiled shyly; Nma could see that she didn’t believe her. “You have a very good shape if you would just wear the right clothes, and use the right make-up. And come to think of it, you have a very creative mind with clothes. Use it on yourself a bit”
“Do you think I am not classy enough to work here?” Nma wasn’t offended; she could only see that Helen was a bit nervous which was new to her. She had always seen Helen as a very confident girl who didn’t have time for frivolities or else she wouldn’t have survived as her assistant
“You know I am not honey, but I hate to see any beauty go through life unnoticed. Isn’t that why we make very beautiful clothes?”
Helen smiled “Guilty as charged, I promise to wear more close fitting clothes from this day forward and do up my face, shall we go and eat now?”
Helen was back to her usual cheerful nature “Yes but not before I show you some tricks” she brought out her make over kit and proceeded to turn Helen into a beauty she really was.

Uche was not having a better a day himself, he had been to the Niger Delta twice in the last few days trying to forestall potential upheavals. He had even meddled into politics which was his worst game but he had one or two satisfaction of twisting some arms and hearing them yelp. Now he was back in town only to find out that he had to be in New York and UK in the coming week. Whoever called the life of a rich man idle, he murmured. But he was glad of the challenges, they helped him forget Nma. The girl was trouble, just one kiss and he was thinking of forever with her. He had never been as scared as he was that night when he kissed her. He still remembered the kiss, it made him unbearably uncomfortable. The most annoying part was that no other woman interested him, he didn’t want another woman. While in Port Harcourt, a few had tried but he found out that he could only think about Nma. But he was determined to forget her. He wasn’t ready for that kind of commitment yet.
He looked up as his sister entered and he managed a smile for her as she kissed him and sat down on his desk.
“Star told me you have decided to kill yourself with work”
“I thought you shouldn’t have time to think about no one else but Charles” he replied a bit irritated for no just cause
“You are my brother, loving another man doesn’t take away that fact or the fact that I love you”
“How is it going at the bank?”
“Fine!” she told him “Charles and I are having a little get together to say thank you to those who graced our engagement party”
“Another party! Eva you just had one few days ago”
“Yes I did but this one is different, it is a small thing ten people max”
“If I am free I would come”
“Okay for now”
She gets up and “Bring Nma, I think I like her”
Uche tactfully kept quiet, he pitied his friend, Eva was spoilt good and proper not even him would tolerate her as a wife. Another party barely two weeks after her engagement party, he shuddered. Bring Nma she had said, that was impossible. He knew that if he made the mistake of seeing her again, there would be no turning back. He laughed silently he didn’t believe that a day would come when he would be afraid of a woman.
His mind was still clouded with the thought as he made his way home at the end of the day. He found himself contemplating stopping over at her house. For crying out loud, all he should do to get her out his system was sleep with her till he got bored because the more he resisted, the more intriguing she became.  When he couldn’t make up his mind and other road users were shouting expletives on him. He drove straight on home. He had already agreed that she was one big mystery he wasn’t ready to unravel.

Nma was closeted in her studio alone working at the office, she has been working steadily for past six hours. When her door opened, she expected Helen, the angel who always came to save her from herself. When she looked up, she saw Eva.
“Hello! They said I could find you here”
Nma was too surprised to speak, customers were never allowed into the studio not talk of her own studio. Everyone knew she preferred to work alone hiding her irritation, she commanded her brain to focus on her visitor.
“Hi!”
“Am I disturbing you? I could leave and…”
“No not at all, I was just surprised; I hardly receive visitors up here. So how are you, you came to shop?”
“Yes I came to look around the place, and I think you have a big thing going on here”
Nma smiled and realized the girl was still standing “Please sit down” she indicated a couch, where she had been forced to sleep on when she worked into the night.
“Thank you” Eva sat. There was an awkward silence while Nma wondered what the girl really wanted. She was aware that the girl was very protective of her brother and she wished for her own sake that she was not here to protect Uche, if she was, she would put her in her place in no small way.
“I know you would be wondering why I am here” Eva said
“You couldn’t be more right”
“I am having a little get together at my house tonight, I was wondering if you could come”
“Oh… well… I will come, what time is it?” Nma asked and then it dawned on her that Uche might be there, she didn’t bother to understand the mixed feeling of excitement and fear that griped her. She had stopped trying to sort out what it was she felt for Uche Okoha.
“Well six, it is not really a formal affair, I am just having a pre dinner drink with close friends and after that people can continue with the dinner engagements”
“Okay! So when is the wedding?”
“In two months time, not sure of the date yet but we are definitely getting married in two months”
Nma wanted to ask if her brother would be at the party but she didn’t want the girl to mistake her interest.
“How is it going with Uche?”
Nma was startled, how like her brother she was, confidently asking question that could embarrass.
Nma smiled “I have been very busy and so it has been difficult to see him” was it surprise she saw flicker in the girl’s eyes. She was sure no woman had spoken of her brother so flippantly.
“I am sure the party would be a good opportunity for you to spend some time together. Since I am offering only pre dinner drink, I guess you can make further plans for the evening”
Nma smiled “Contrary to what your brother told you, I want to assure you that we are not really that serious not now and I don’t see it happening in the future”
Eva laughed “Well I am glad that there is one woman on earth who didn’t think my brother walked on water, so my dear I keep my fingers crossed” she laughed again “Star should hear this, it would give her one more thing to tease Uche about” at that moment she stood up her mission accomplished. Eva was glad that she decided to invite the girl personally, when her brother had kept quiet about her, she knew that he might bring someone else and she was scared he might decide to bring Angela.
“See you Tomorrow evening” she smiled at Nma. She liked the girl and yet she couldn’t put a finger on why she did.
Nma stood up too and walked her to the door. “Thanks for coming and for taking the trouble to invite me”
As soon as she left, Nma knew that her peace of mind had gone with her. So it was again inevitable that she would see him. As she was thinking a thought occurred to her, so the man had the guts to ignore her after all the innuendoes he implied. Well she was going to make him beg for it. She was going to that party and she was going to look so good that all the men there would be salivating at the thought of her. She could probably go with Ken to add insult to the injury. She wasn’t particularly sure about that because she had been avoiding Ken and she didn’t want to give the poor man the wrong impression. If she took him along, she would become guilty for the same crime she was going to punish Uche for. She paced about, thinking of what to wear, an idea occurred to her and she picked up her sketch pad and began to sketch what she would wear. She decided on skirt and top, she wanted something modest but which would at the same time show off her finest attributes. She spent the rest of the day perfecting her attire.

Nma came out from her bathroom and patted her face in the mirror. She had spent some time on her face masking it with a marine mask, a new hundred percent natural face mask that did magic to one’s face. She was careful with her facials because she detested chemicals on the body. So she researched the product she used very well before using them. She picked up the simple top she had made. Somehow she wasn’t sure anymore. The top was shiny red peplum blouse, with empire waist and three inches band then it fell into pretty gathers with balloon puff sleeves. The top molded her perfect figure especially the band clung and emphasized her very tiny waist but the gathers gave her space so it could move on her body as she walked. She wanted to make Uche beg for it and he was going to, then she would turn him down and get the satisfaction of bursting his over inflated ego. She wore a black leather pencil skirt. The skirt molded her well round hip, which looked more rounded because of her very tiny waist. She wore black shiny stiletto shoes and matched with an over size skin colored purse. She looked at her hair and debated what to do with it; she decided to let it fall and pin a red flower. She looked at her end result and smiled with satisfaction. Who said being a fashion designer didn’t help, especially when you have a point to prove or a statement to make.  Tonight she was telling Uche that he can’t have his cake and eat it. With that she left her bedroom, she was in high spirit and she was excited.

She got the exact result she wanted when she entered the room, all the men in room gave her appreciative glances but they didn’t mean anything to her. She was here on a quest. Uche was nowhere to be seen but she was sure he was coming. Eva came to her and gave a friendly kiss, “come and meet everybody” she cued, Nma could feel disappointment sipping into her some time later as it began to look as if Uche wasn’t going to come. And she couldn’t resist asking Eva.
“I haven’t seen Uche around, is he not coming?”
Eva hid her smile, so the girl wasn’t as immune as she let on. Eva decided not to let off easily.
“My brother is never predictable; he might not show up after all”
Her heart went out to the girl when she saw her disappointment but she said nothing and drifted away to attend to her other guests. Nma was standing at a corner, when Charles accosted her.
“If this isn’t the hazel eyed witch”
Nma turned and gave him a brilliant smile
“Hello, nice party”
“Yes, Eva loves throwing parties”
“But I see you indulge her”
“When you love someone the way I do her, you would find it difficult to deny him whatever brings him happiness”
Nma smiled and thought of Uche, she wondered if he would ever come to love her the way Charles described but she bit back her sigh of disappointment. He wasn’t the man for her. There was no way a man like him would agree to her idea of relationship.  She shouldn’t even be here; she thought, who was she kidding?
“How are you enjoying the party?” Charles asked
“Fine, the people here are friendlier”
He laughed, “Because they are close friends, birds of the same feather flock together”
Nma smiled as she remembered Uche saying the same thing in his usual arrogant manner.
Suddenly she felt the hair at her back stand and she knew that only one person could have that effect on her. She couldn’t help turning around, and she saw him standing at the door with the most beautiful woman she had ever seen, she could feel her resentment for the girl wash all over her. The girl wore a short red high waist gown. The gown was so short that it left nothing to be imagined. Nma was breathless and faint and she couldn’t believe it as she looked at the girl’s cool beauty and charisma. She knew that she had once again succeeded in making a fool of herself over Uche Okoha. Her next decision was to make some polite excuse and leave. She knew the exact moment he saw her, as their eyes met her breath caught in her throat, he looked as handsome as ever in deep blue chinos and sparkling white fitted shirts open at the neck showing very tiny gold chain. She loved this man, she thought and she stopped. She could feel tears rushing to her eyes as the realization dawned on her. She was in love with a man who didn’t care if she existed. She turned back to Charles, determined to ignore Uche till she was alone again to think about her new found feelings for him.

Uche watched her talking to Charles. Was he never to be free of her? Eva had gone the extra mile to invite her. Hadn’t Star insisted on coming with him just to take a look at the girl Uche Okoha was pinning for?  He felt his blood quicken as he took in her attire. Gush! Didn’t the girl know what her figure did to every warm blooded man? Then he noticed that he wasn’t the only one looking. He glared at the man beside him so fiercely.
“That girl is something else” the man muttered before moving away.
Didn’t the girl have the good sense of wearing some loose clothes? Did she not know the kind attention she was drawing to herself? It irked him to know that all the men in the room were wishing but he was going to let them know that she was not free for taking.
“You have been looking at that girl and glaring at everyone who looked at her, is she the one?”
He glared at Star. He knew that Star turning up at his house was her sister’s way of making sure he came. He had already settled for a quiet evening when she arrived.
Just then Eva joined them. She smiled at him and gave him a hug. “People are already leaving Uche; you are becoming terrible with time”
“Why did you invite her?” he heard himself ask
“She came to my party and I wanted to thank her, after all you were the one who said I should be friendly to her.
“Who did she come with?”
“I can’t tell but I haven’t seen her chummy with anybody since she came”
“Excuse me” he said to ladies and began to approach Nma.
Star and Eva exchanged a look,
“So it happened at last” Star breathed
“I never thought I would see my brother besotted over a woman again. He cares about her”
“The whole of our specie would definitely mourn the chance we never had” Star mused
Eva turned to her with surprise “Didn’t know you are still sweet on my brother”
Star smiled “still sweet on him, no I am not” she laughed.
“What actually happened the first time?”
“Nothing happened I wanted him so much when I came to work for him and he felt the same way, so one day we were working late and somehow we started kissing but the good thing was we realized that we couldn’t do that to our working relationship and since then we feel nothing but respect and friendship for each other”
“When did you realize that, before or after” Eva asked mischievously
“He is your brother I know but if he was not, tell me do you think you would have resisted working with him everyday and not want to find out” Star smiled as she watched Uche stopped by a couple eager girls. “He can hardly make it across the room without being stopped by numerous eager girls”
“Well I hope you are satisfied with the decision both of you came to because the way I am seeing it, there is no turning back for him with Nma”
“You know me girl friend, if I still wanted him Nma wouldn’t have had a chance” she smiled “But I have found out I love my freedom, moreover I got a call from Chucks last night and when next he is town, we are hooking up”
“Star Chucks is the worst Casanova on earth” Eva exclaimed
“And sweet heart I am a definite match for him” taking a drink from a passng waiter, she sipped and smiled.

Charles turned and saw Uche approaching them except that there were so many women who wanted to talk to him. He smiled because he knew what exactly was happening to his friend and he was glad. Uche thought he should have resisted falling for his sister, and he wanted to see him resist what was happening to him. He was falling in love and hardly knew it. By the look of things he was fighting it and giving it all kinds of name that it was not. He was going to sit back and relax and enjoy this. He wanted to watch how Uche was going to come out of this one without a marriage certificate.

Nma made the mistake of turning just as Uche managed to extricate himself from a group ladies. She felt her pulse quickened and she lost the trend of the conversation she was having with Charles. She tried to give sensible answers to his questions but gave up when she couldn’t follow her thoughts through. Her whole mind was centered on Uche. She didn’t know the first thing she would say to him and she desperately searched her mind for something appropriate. A cool smile was all she could manage when he reached them.
“Glad you could come man” she heard Charles say
“Don’t let her have her way all the time” Uche laughed at his friend
“You would be doing the same for someone soon, the way I see it”
“Not very soon, maybe someday, why not go charm your fiancée and leave us bachelors to woo the ladies” he teased Charles who laughed and left.
Nma felt her heart skip a bit as he turned to her after Charles left.
“How are you?” he asked her
“Fine and you?”
“I have been very busy”
“Me too, I am getting ready for an exhibition next month and I hardly had time for myself” you are blabbing Nma, too much information, she scolded herself.
“I see your fiancé is not here” Uche asked looking around
“No he is not, I came alone”
“Does he ever go anywhere with you?”
“Not that it is any of your business, but we have different schedule and we have found a way to work around it and we love our space very much”
“Forgive me for assuming, I am yet to realize that some men are not like me. I see you are the only one without a drink, come along let me find you something to drink”
Mesmerized she followed him. She looked around when she found herself in the kitchen.
The kitchen was quite big, bigger than her living room and furnished with every gadget one could wish for in a kitchen.
“Very nice, is this Charles’s house?”
“This is Eva’s house” Uche told her and drew out a seat for her at the small dinning table.
“My parents will not permit them living together without a marriage certificate”
 She sat down and watched as he opened the well stocked fridge.
“I believe your parents are right”
He came back with a pack of pineapple juice and poured a generous amount for the both of them.
“But it is a waste of time because, they could pretend all they want before my parents that they are waiting till wedding night but I am not fooled”
Nma smiled “Has it occurred to you that you might be wrong”
“I am never wrong sweet heart”
Nma laughed and decided to change the topic.
“You are not drinking tonight”
He chuckled “I am not fond of drinking alone” he answered and sat down beside her.
“You could have told Eva about your drinking habit, she would have provided you with an alternative”
“I wasn’t going to stay long” she replied, wishing there was more space between them. He was sitting too close to her. And she could feel his strong thighs brushing against hers and it was making her nervous. What was wrong with her? She tried to ignore his muscular bicep which was directly beside her and at arm’s reach, her mind whispered.  How she loved this man, she thought. She wished things were different.

Uche watched her sip the drink, he could remember what it felt like to kiss her, he tried to stop himself from what he was about to do but there was no stopping his hands because they seem to develop a will of their own whenever he was with her. He took the cup from her.
She knew immediately that he was going to kiss her and she raised her mouth welcoming him. Then it occurred to her that the last time he kissed her, he withdrew from her and that was the last thing she wanted, not tonight, not ever. She leaned out of reach. She saw a flicker of surprise in his eyes.
But Uche was not having her denial he has been waiting for an opportunity to kiss her again and here it was and she was not going to deny him.
“What is it?”
“This is your sister’s kitchen and anybody might walk in”
“Are you suggesting we go somewhere more private and comfortable?”
She looked up alarmed at his suggestion and she stood up meaning to leave, shaking not with anger but she was actually excited by his suggestions and she had to get away from him before she said yes. He began to laugh as she struggled to leave. She turned to him summoning anger
“You think this is funny” she asked
But he drew her down on him, she was startled to find herself sitting on him and he placed his mouth on her. She was about to turn away but he spoke.
“Relax, you are safe, there are about twenty people in the next room who could come in anytime, I am not going to do anything that would embarrass you” then he deepened the kiss and she was lost at that instant, it didn’t matter if they were in a room filled with a crowd, all that mattered was him.
This shouldn’t feel this right, he shouldn’t feel like he has found paradise but that was what kissing her did to him. He wasn’t scared anymore, he was just plain curious to find what it would feel like all the way. There was no point denying himself any longer. He wanted her and he was going to have her and stay with her till he got bored. He was sure he would get bored but he knew it was not going to be soon.
While they were oblivious of nothing else except each other, Star came in followed by Eva but the moment they saw them, they slowly tiptoed away. Uche broke the kiss because he had to breathe. She leaned on him and he held her.
“What do you think about dinner on a beach?”
“Romantic” she murmured “but impossible” she concluded
“Never say never, and most things are possible with me” he drew her to her feet and kissed her once more. “Let’s go find something to eat”

Back in the living room they found out that most of the guests had gone. Only star and Eva were in the living room when they came in.
“I see I have been dumped” Star smiled at both of them.
Nma gasped remembering the girl, in her excitement she had forgotten that he brought a date. The girl might be just a friend to him judging from the way he spoke to her. Still it wasn’t proper for him to leave without her”
“I brought my car” Nma suggested “I could meet up with you”
“Eva would you please see that Star gets home, call her a cab” he gave the woman a lingering kiss on the cheek and said something that made her laugh and he led her out.
“What about my car” she asked as the door closed behind them.
“It would get home before you I assure you” he opened the door of yet another jeep and helped her in. Nma sat down and closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She wasn’t sure she knew what she was doing though, because if she knew, she would not be going anywhere with this man. As he drove, it occurred to her that he mentioned dinner on a beach and she wondered what he had in mind.
“So where is this beach you are talking about?”
“My house”
“You own a beach?” she asked trying not to panic because he mentioned his house. She was certain that he was joking.
“Yes I do, it is called Eden castle”
“So that’s where you are taking me?”
Uche could hear the panic she was trying to conceal and was doing a bad job of it.
“It would have been my pleasure but Eden castle would take about two hours to get to. But at my town house here, I have a beach I share with all my neighbors, if we are lucky we might find the beach to ourselves”
“Your house, I didn’t realize”
“And you are having second thoughts?”
“Well, it is just that it is getting late and I wonder…”
“Hey” he touched her knees “I am not a rapist”
She looked at him with shock “I never implied that you are”
“Then stop being afraid and let’s enjoy dinner”
“I am not afraid”
“Were you not” he asked mockingly
“Why should I be when I know I am only going to have dinner on the beach?”
Uche laughed and shook his head “Honestly I am intrigued by you, we are almost there”
She saw his house come into view. Was this what he called a house in town? The place looked more like a mansion and it glittered with lights. But so did other houses beside his. This was where the richest of the rich lived in wealth and splendor. Yet she felt that his house was more enchanting than the others. There was something gravely mysterious about the place that made it stand out from the rest. She saw him punch some numbers in the dash board and the gate opened and she was watched in awe as they drove in. as if he knew what she thinking, he began to explain.
“I have same code in all my cars, it is for security, I could open my gate five minutes to my house, it opens five second after I punch in the code and closes even faster. A man in my position can’t afford to be careless”
“Is your life constantly in danger?”
He smiled “You can never tell how many people want you dead for very flimsy excuses”
“Have you wronged so many people?”
“A business man cannot help that, sometimes you fire some lazy workers who thought you were too cruel and sometimes it might be something bigger and someone more your size. I have to apply caution”
She didn’t like it; she didn’t like what she was hearing one bit. She was very scared and concerned that his life could be in danger. As the car pulled to a stop, she turned to him
“Shouldn’t you go around with body guards then?”
Was it concern he heard in her voice, it intrigued him, none of his lady friends had shown such concern before and he hastened to assure her “I don’t need one, while I was sowing my wild oaths in America according to my dad, I was with the marine for two years, so honey I can very well take care of myself” he smiled
“Yet you should have body guards what’s one man against five men with guns”
“I do have body guards, courtesy of my mother who seemed to share the same sentiments as you. But they stay off sight” he told her. His mother employed body guards to watch him secretly she thought he didn’t know. At first he didn’t but when he eventually found out, he decided to indulge her after all she was the one paying them but he had warned them that he would fire them if he saw anyone of them near him. From then on he ignored them even when they broke the agreement.
“She must worry about you” Nma was saying as he helped her down the car. “No wonder she wants you to be serious about Angela, she wants you to reproduce more Okoha males as fast as possible seeing that you like to live dangerously”
He chuckled “My mother would love you if she gets to know you better”
Nma smiled at him, she didn’t see any chance of that happening and was going to reply but the door was opened by a teenager in pink shorts and spaghetti top. Nma wondered who the girl was and why she was so scantily dressed. She saw Uche stiffen and she had come to know that as a sign of rising temper. How fast she getting to know him she thought.
“Where’s your mother?” Uche asked
“She is putting finishing touches to dinner, she asked me to see to the door”
Nma watched the girl as she spoke and when their eyes met she was surprised to see that girl’s eyes reflected nothing but friendliness. She didn’t have time to dwell on the thoughts as Uche was leading her into the house and explaining about the girl.
‘That’s my house keeper’s daughter, they live at the boy’s quarter but I have a feeling that she is more than eager to fill her mother’s shoes”
Nma nodded, the hall way was enchanting, soft red rug, green huge plants, paintings at the adjacent sides of the white walls. “Do you care for a drink before dinner, oh? I forgot you don’t drink”
“I must have something if you don’t mind”
“Go ahead” she replied and he led her to the living room and she nearly cried out with its share splendor. It looked like nothing she had ever seen. Her entire house could fit into the living room. She thought Eva’s house was beautiful but it was nothing compared to this one. From where they stood the living room was twenty inches below it looked like a pit for orchestra except that it was much bigger and larger. She took in the stairs and looked around, she was still awe struck. The room was marbled too but it had Persian scatter rug and two ottomans, the television covered one part of the wall. She watched him pour himself a drink and wondered how someone could be so rich.
“It is very beautiful here” she said
“It is just a house, I am grateful for it but you should see my mother’s home. I still miss it” he said and turned to her again. And handed her a drink he watched her hesitate “It is very safe for you to drink, it is none alcoholic” she accepted the drink and sat down.
“Unless you prefer to be here, I would say we proceed to the beach”
She stood up and followed him to the beach.

The beach was long stretch of white sand, which was shared by other houses. It was beautiful, there was a full moon and the sky was filled with stars. She closed her eyes in share delight and took a long deep breath. It was like something out of a fairy tale.
“You might want to remove your shoes” she heard him say. She opened her eyes and did as he suggested and he grasped her wrist and led her to a patch on the sand that has already been overlaid with blanket. There was a bucket of ice containing some wine in it. She looked around the place and sighed again. If this was how he wooed his woman, no wonder they rush after him like bees to pollen.
“It’s is magical here” she breathed and he chuckled and began to pour the wine.
“I am glad you like it” he said and handed her the wine. She took it without asking him. She knew he would never give alcohol to drink. Was that the beginning of trust, she asked herself. Could she trust him? Was there any good in trusting a man like Uche, a man the world had dubbed the worst notorious play boy? But sitting with him and gazing at nothing but the stars, he didn’t seem anything like the cruel heart breaker he had been called a lot of times.

The house keeper came with the dishes distracting her, she watched the woman serve the food closed face and she wondered if someone had offended her. There was no friendly bone in the woman at all unlike her daughter.
“You will enjoy Emen’s cooking; she is a diamond of the first water in that area”
Nma smiled “I can’t wait” the food looked quite good and she didn’t know she was actually hungry until she saw the food and her stomach growled. The taste of the coconut rice with fried plantain and vegetable sauce was different from all she has ever tasted.
“You are right” she said to Uche, “that woman is a genius”
“You know every time I look at you, I am reminded of a woman, and she is one of my mother’s protégée”
“Who could that be?”
“Do you know the woman who owns BodyTalk?”
“Amber! Of course yes” she gladly said”
“Are you related?”
“No, I don’t know her one on one but she is my role model and I look up to her”
Nma had wondered at the resemblance between her and Amber but she had concluded that it was a mere coincidence.
“You share the same enchanting eyes and luscious lips and the same deadly figure, now she is in her forties but she doesn’t look a day older that twenty five”
Nma watched the way he described the woman and wondered if there was more between them other than the woman being his mother’s protégée. She couldn’t believe she was jealous of the woman. She was not only jealous of the woman, she was jealous of every other woman he might be interested in.
“You could be her lost relative” he told her
“Not a chance” Nma said, she didn’t want him to reinforcing her childhood wishes that Amber could actually be her mother. She was sure that if her mother was still alive, she would have sought her out by now.
“I see you don’t want to acknowledge the possibility”
“I have outgrown wishing that my mother would show up one day” she smiled ruefully and she immediately changed the topic.
“So what exactly do you do that gives you all these money?”
He chuckles
“I’m into a lot of things” he replied lazily raising his glass to his lips, she watched drink and swallowed hard. She couldn’t believe she found the simple task of drinking so exciting. Would she ever recognize herself again?
“But I command a good part of the oil industry in Nigeria and a good percentage around the world. Then there is shipping and manufacturing of raw materials. Then we own Silverline Bank and it is developing fine, and tourism of course, you must know dream towers. We have it spotted every where in the world and a few in Nigeria, mostly in the pacific regions and a little bit of this and that”
Nma made sure her mouth was not hanging open.  He was virtually into everything. Then she looked around her surroundings and wondered how she expected to have a serious platonic relationship with this man.
“How do you cope, it is easy to loose count”
“I have capable people working with me and they know I don’t suffer fools gladly”
She sighed in wonder and closed her eyes. Suddenly she felt inferior because she had just understood the kind of man she was dealing with and she didn’t think she could begin to measure up.

Uche knew she was overwhelmed, in his experience; this is where he began to get bored with the women he dated. Once they understood how rich he was, they became overwhelmed and too eager to please him. He wondered what was going on in her mind. Had she realized that he was too rich and was now plotting her next move on trapping him good and proper? Irritated he pushed away the food. But her next word shocked him.
“I should go home, it is getting late. It was a nice evening, thank you for inviting me”
She was leaving, no that was new. Most girls he had known became more pliant and willing after learning how rich he was. He could feel his heart jump in happiness. He couldn’t believe he was happy that she was not all like the other girls.
“But the night had just started; we are yet to swim in the ocean”
She looked up shocked “I am not going to swim in that water this night and neither are you” did the guy want to die, she asked herself. She didn’t know why the thought scared her, probably because he was a human being like her. She was sure she would feel the same if he was another human being. The truth she was too scared to face was that she wasn’t about to let him die not when she had just found him.
“Don’t tell me you are afraid of water” he laughed drawing her to her feet.
“I am not afraid of water, I just don’t like swimming when it is dark, and there could be lots different animals out there”
“This ocean is safe, I wouldn’t risk my life”
“Who is to tell the scavengers that Uche Okoha is on the prowl keep away?”
He laughed “So what do you suggest we do instead because the night is still too young”
Nma became nervous all of a sudden. She had not reviewed the situation, they were alone on the beach and only God knew what was going on in his mind.
“I really must start going” she heard herself say.
He wondered if she was really as innocent as she acted. He knew that of course she wouldn’t be a virgin but he doubted if she has had much experience with men and how to handle them, contrary to the impression she gave out about herself. Didn’t she know that the more a woman resisted, the more persistent the man became.
“Absolutely no honey, I am not letting you go anytime soon, let’s walk a bit” he suggested. He wanted to bring down her anxiety which almost resembled virginal fears. Nma found herself falling into steps with him. He took her hands and they began to walk.
“Tell me” Uche began “About the fashion industry” he surprised her by asking. She had thought that all he would be thinking about would be how to get her into his bed.
“I didn’t know you were interested in it; tell me do you have business interest in our industry?”
“It depends on what you tell me”
“It is still a growing one in this country, you know but it has got great potential because no other industry in the world can do without us”
“Is that true?”
“Can you imagine yourself going to work without clothes?”
She had to chuckle at the sight her mind had conjured
“It has happened before; the early men went around nearly naked, if the same case is applicable to us now, I’d like to think we would manage just fine”
“Well let’s stick to the twenty first century, the early days are gone and man continues to develop”
“You are right” he smiled at her “so tell me why a twenty first century man like me can’t do without you, business speaking of course”
“Well, because we give you the class and grace you need to excel in your world, you can’t go to your board room meetings in torn jeans and T shirts, and neither can you go to a beach party in a tuxedo. We define what is appropriate at any given time, we define lifestyle and we create elegance for those who can’t afford to be ordinary. Take a look at yourself and tell me that being distinct and unique doesn’t speak volume about you in any gathering you find yourself and that is what we do for you. And no one who is eager to succeed in his chosen career could afford to ignore us, and that is virtually every single person in the world”
“Wow! I am dazzled”
“So when I say the industry have potential, I am not talking about a group of select few who could afford to drive cars or own houses or go to school, I am talking about every single person in the world and think about the money to be made from about eight billion people”
“I am impressed, I am tempted to hire you” he laughed and stopped “I am impressed you are not all looks and no brain”
“The beautiful ones are the intelligent ones” she laughed easily with him.
“So what is your place in this ocean of potential you’ve just described?”
“A very small one now, but I am working hard everyday to see that I spread my tentacles by getting money magnets like you involved”
He laughed “Have you been suffering my presence because of that”
He saw the flicker of shock in her eyes and it pleased him. She was not, he concluded
“I enjoy your company Uche and that is the only reason I am here, still if you are going to invest in the industry I would rather you do it through my label”
He watched her and knew she was being honest, and then he bent down and kissed her.
“You know I have never pined for another woman the way I do you, why do you think that is?”
“I am very different from the sort you are used to dating Uche, I guess that is the reason” and then he kissed her. Tentatively at first then with so much adore that had both of them shivering.
“Let’s go inside, I want to make love to you the first time in a bed”
Her fears returned with full force. Of course she was not going to say yes, there was no way she was going to sleep with him. She had to find a way to say no without sounding like a total imbecile.
“I don’t think so, I should start going” still she sounded worst than an imbecile.
“I know you want to, are you afraid of cheating on Ken?”
She grasped the excuse he offered “Yes Ken, I can’t do this to him”
“Why do you choose to waste your time with a man who doesn’t rouse you like I do?”
“You can’t tell that he doesn’t” she replied trying to sound angry but failing.
“I can tell by the way you respond to me. Right now, your mind might be feeling a little reluctant but your body is trembling with anticipation. You wouldn’t want me this much if Ken could give you the same pleasure” he smiled at her.
She couldn’t say anything, he was telling the truth and she didn’t know how to deny it.
“Sooner or later, you are going to make up your mind who you want Nma, I don’t share and I don’t want that little of your time that Ken is too busy to have”
He kissed her again briefly. “I will let you go home tonight Nma and never again”
He began to lead her back the way they came from.

Nma was quiet through out the drive home trying to accept that this was her last time with him. She was not going to be able to give him what he really wanted, so she would stop wasting his time and her own. She was better off with Ken, at least with Ken she was in control.  But she was going to miss him terribly, she wished there was something else she could do but she knew that Uche was never going to accept a platonic affair; the man was too virile to live that way. She sighed and looked at his grim face. Was he angry that she said no tonight? Maybe he had made up his mind not to see her anymore. Well who could blame him, how could he stick with her virginal fears when millions of women all over the world were more than willing to sleep with him even it was for once?

The jeep crawled to a stop in front of her house and she turned to look at him, meaning to say a quiet good night and getting out of the car but Uche had another thing in my mind.
“I am sorry I am going to say my good bye here, I don’t trust myself to be inside your house and behave”
The way he said it brought a shiver she was fast becoming familiar with down her spine.
“I understand” she murmured reaching for the handle but he stopped her
“But that doesn’t mean I am not going to say good bye at all” he drew her into his arms. “I want you to forget Ken; there is no way I am going to let him have you now that I have decided I want you”
She would have met his arrogance with hers was she with her senses but her senses were filled with him and with the anticipation of his kiss.  He kissed her, Nma should be getting used to his kisses now but each of his kiss was different from the last one. Uche groaned in frustration and let her go.
“Till tomorrow honey” he unlocked the car and she came down on shaky legs, she waved him and entered her house. She leaned on her door and wiped her tears for a love that would never be.


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Please I need help, a friend told me of this blog and that through your comments I can get valuable advice.
I work as a secretary. My boss owns a growing beverage company. We are still growing, things are a bit tough but our product is good so we are growing and gaining market share everyday.
My boss is what you will call young, handsome and very smart. For the past one year that I have been working for him, I have been in love with him. I have tried everything to get him to notice me, the only thing remaining is walk up to him and tell him how I feel but I still feel that he is still concentrating on his company and has no time for nothing else now. So I patiently waited.
But something chased me out of my comfort zone, he is about to make the biggest mistake of his life. A female marketer walked into our office one day, looking very artificial from head to toe. From her looks you will know she is a runs girl. She was wearing very long Peruvian hair and very short gown and contact lenses. I recognized her type and was about to tell her my boss is not around when my boss came out of his office. He asked if the girl was waiting for him, the girl said yes before I could and immediately introduced herself and her company. he told her he doesn't have time to talk because he was on his way to lunch but added he could talk over lunch. The foolish girl agreed to go with him.
Since then she has become a regular visitor to the office, acting like the madam. I was the one who suffered with him when he was just starting out and had nothing. I accepted a very meager salary from him for good ten months before we started making good money. I was there for him. And now because I am not expensive and glamorous another girl wants to reap where she didn't sow.
What has she to offer him except milk him dry with her Peruvian hair and very expensive stuff. I need to save the man I love from getting ruined, because that girl is too expensive for his level now. All she cares about is his money, I know this.
Please readers I need help on what to do, how do I make him fall for me and how do I get rid of this jezebel?

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AMBER ROMANCE

EVERY WAKING MOMENT


CHAPTER SEVEN



Helen entered the guest suite she always used whenever she had to spend the night at Eden castle.  She dropped her over night bag on the bed and sat down and heaved a sigh. So here she was finally about to meet Chuck again in a few hours. Her mind went back to that kiss. She shouldn’t be relieving it but she couldn’t help herself. She shouldn’t be looking forward to it again but that was all she could do to keep from running mad. To distract herself, she got up and began to put away her toiletries. She hung the attire for tomorrow and laid out the red bikini and lemon chiffon short gown she was wearing over it. She wondered.
She should go out and meet others, she was sure the living room will be filling up by now yet she could not put one foot in front of the other. The truth was whether she wanted it or not, she was going to see Chuck again. That wasn’t her reluctance, her fear she realized was of her, she knew somehow that resisting Chuck if he thought to finish what they started was zero to none. Not that she wanted to resist the man if he was really interested in her, no she wouldn’t because she had stopped lying to herself long ago and accepted the bitter truth that he was the love of her life. The only reason she was going to try hard at resisting him was because of her amnesia. Before she entered a relationship, she needed to find who she was, a married woman, a fiancée, a mother? These things she needed to know, she didn’t want a case where she would become very serious with a man and wake up morning only to find out she was a loving wife to another man. Relationship, what relationship, the only thing closest to a relationship that Chuck Obi would be wanting from her would be a weekend fling, beginning tonight and ending tomorrow night,  if he was stayed long enough, she thought sadly.
You are not going to solve the whole problem right now Helen, she told herself. The best she could do was to wear her bikini and gown and go down to meet the others.  She was a grown woman and one that can handle herself in any given situation. She was a big girl and shouldn’t let the thought of a man who didn’t know she existed till this morning scare her off friends, stop her from giving Nma her full support this weekend or turn her off having fun and enjoying herself. Even the way she was hiding up here was silly and pathetic. She was going to enjoy herself whether Chuck wanted it or not. With that conviction she got into her bikini and gown and marched to the mirror resolutely and refreshed her makeup.
 With determined footsteps she left the room and closed the door behind.

Helen found people gathered around the kitchen table. Snacking while others were raiding the fridge but there was no sign of Chuck for that she was grateful. Seeing him here would have shaken her equilibrium no matter the pep talk she had given herself. Amber was the first to see her.
‘Hello darling’ Amber cooed and dragged her into the circle. Soon Helen was mingling and laughing and having fun. She tried not to spare a thought to Chuck. He could go to blazes for all she cared. She was glad she was dressed for the occasion; it would have been difficult to compete with Amber in white bikini and sarong. How possible was it that any could compete with the kind of figure Amber in her fifties could still boast of except for  Nma when she got to that age.
‘So Helen how are the designs coming up?’ Rose Nma’s mother in law asked.
Helen opened her mouth to answer but Chuck entered at that very moment and she forgot what she was going to say. She just stared at him like a foolish teenager. Helen ate him up with her eyes, if anyone noticed how hungrily she was looking at him, they didn't say and she didn’t care because she couldn’t help herself, all she could do was stare and admire how handsome he looked in a jeans and white black T shirts, which did nothing to hide his bulging and rippling muscles. She swallowed hard and tried without success to rein in her thoughts to no avail. She wanted this man with every fiber of her being. She wanted nothing more than to belong to him, and for him to belong to her. She watch with growing dread and excitement as he made his way round the table greeting family and friends he hadn’t seen in a while. She watched him swing Shawn up and around. Though Shawn hadn’t seen him before  but Chuck was undeniably his favorite uncle. Helen wondered what he would do when he reached her side of the table. She feared somehow that he would ignore her or greet her dismissively like he had always done before. That was before she sneaked into his bedroom and jumped him. It would be nothing short of what she deserved if he decided he didn’t want anything to with her again, she thought sadly
An excited laughter cut into her thoughts and got her looking up. Chuck was swinging Nma around, Helen couldn’t help the momentarily envy that engulfed her. She wanted that same treatment she realized, she wanted to be held in his arms, she wanted... this is not helping Helen said to herself. So with a sinking heart she watched as Uche came to his wife rescue neatly taking her from Chuck hands
‘Go find your own wife’ Uche said
 Nma laughed gleefully.
‘You think that is going to earn you my forgiveness?’
‘I am so sorry Portable; I couldn’t come home for the dedication?’ Chuck apologized with a wink
Helen watching felt something tug at the roots of her hearts, if only… stop it! She cautioned herself. This would never be, even if Chuck somehow by some miracle remotely returned her feeling,  it would still not matter unless her memories returned.
‘Portable?’ Amber wondered aloud.
Yes potable, Helen thought. it had just occurred to her that Chuck called Nma portable and she wondered what it meant and why she had never heard the nick name before now.
‘Chuck thinks with her height and her curves she is pocket size and had taken up calling her portable’
Amber laughed
Helen felt her heart sink lower; she had always suspected that there was a part of Chuck that was in love with Nma. Competing with Nma was a lost cause because Nma was all that she wasn’t. She knew how much he emphasized on Nma’s killer’s shape, beauty and charisma. Stop it! She screamed at herself silently. The right thing to do she told herself would be to leave the table so she could get a hold of erratic thoughts before she behaved or said something she would forever regret.
‘hmm! What a nick name’ amber reflected
Helen turned to her and managed a smile. She had to join the discussion to  stop eating him up with her eyes before anyone noticed
‘It fits’ Helen said but it came out in mere whisper if anybody heard they gave no indication. Uche decided at that very moment that his wife needed kissing.
‘Show off’ Chuck laughed and turned to Amber
‘Amber make me the happiest man on earth and marry me, we could compete with those two, give them a run for their love’
‘I am a grandmother and too old for you’
‘You don’t look a day beyond thirty’
Amber laughed ‘Now that’s a comforting thought’
Helen tried to stay current with the conversation but it seemed impossible because she couldn’t help being disappointed that he once more acted like he didn’t know her.
He had said hi, kissed, and hugged everyone but her. Even the hated IJ got a reluctant hi from him. She hadn’t gotten not even a hug she thought miserably. She knew that he didn’t know she existed or cared but after what nearly happened this morning she expected at least the slightest acknowledgment from him. Who was she kidding, the man might have forgotten what happened this morning. Maybe he had chunked it down to another morning in Chuck Obi’s fabulous life. She was sure that having a girl fall out of nowhere into his bed was normal for him, Helen fumed inside wishing she was anywhere but sitting down stiffly and feeling invisible. Why she thought she wanted this man, she couldn’t tell, he was arrogant, prideful and insensitive. Yes she knew she wasn’t up to his class of girls but ignoring her in the midst of everyone was painful and thoughtless of him and she wanted nothing more than to leave the room but she couldn’t do that without drawing undue attention to herself. Or worst giving the arrogant pig the impression that she was running away or that his deliberate insult got to her.
Suddenly she felt a hand touch and squeeze her shoulder. Chuck, her heart leaped in joy.
‘Saving the best for last’ he bent down and whispered into her ears. Helen couldn’t help the shudder that ran through her body as his breath kissed her skin.
‘I believe we have unfinished business; She should say something, anything to dissuade him or to get people from wondering what he was saying to her but her mind was clear of all thought and she was incapable of the barest of thoughts.
‘I have been looking forward to seeing you  and have been afraid that you would decide not to show up’ he dropped a kiss and left her alone to make sense out  of what he said.
Helen looked up at the others afraid that they somehow heard or saw but everyone was engrossed in what they were doing and she breathed a sigh of relief. Then she sneaked a look at him and he caught her eyes and held it. Helen couldn’t look away. He was truly the definition of a Greek god, no man had the right to be this handsome. No man should be allowed to have this kind of powerful hold on a woman, the way he had on her. Helen felt her mouth water then go dry, she had wet her lips. Misunderstanding the act, he winked and toasted her with the bottle of water he had taken from the fridge.
She needed rescuing, Helen thought. Chuck thought that the weekend was the perfect venue to finish what happened this morning and she was very afraid because she didn’t know if she could resist him if he made a move on her. One thing was clear she didn’t have control of her senses or body when he was around. So she needed something or someone to save her from what would turn out to be the biggest mistake of her life. She didn’t want to be his lover, that is a lie, her mind whispered. Okay yes she wanted to be his lover but she didn’t want to be his weekend lover, an itch that had to be scratched and soon forgotten. Besides even if he offered her the world which to her meant marriage to him, she would still turn him down because of her lost memories. Marriage? Helen that is the definition of pipe day dream, all Chuck wanted was to satisfy his curiosity and nothing more. She needed to do something to save herself from the shame that might come later on if she couldn’t resist him. Maybe she should leave, leave now and save herself. If she did that, Nma would be hurt and confused, that she wouldn’t ever want to do that to Nma.
The house keeper ushering someone in got her looking up and then she smiled. Somehow she could believe there was someone up there who was watching and listening.
‘Dave’ Helen said and got up to give him a hug and kiss. If Dave was surprised at her enthusiastic greeting, he didn’t show it. He held on to her and kissed her more and longer than she intended.
Chuck watched the scene with a feeling he couldn’t begin to understand. A feeling he didn’t care to put into words. He only came to the bitter conclusion that no woman was different. They were all the same ready to drop their pants at the sight of a bigger fish no matter how deep their commitment to someone else was. He felt eyes on him and caught Uche watching him; he smiled at him, and rolled his shoulder dismissively. Then he noticed Star, ever since he came in, he only had eyes for Helen and no one else. Had he not tried to stop himself from rushing to her by making sure he greeted her last?  And all the while he didn’t know that the little tramp had a boyfriend. He dismissed her from his confused feeling from his mind and turned to Star, if there was a woman who had been consistent in what she felt for him, it was Star,
‘Who’s your friend?’ Someone asked
She turned to the group and introduced Dave to all.
‘I know you’ Uche said
‘Your family own the biggest chain of malls around here’
‘Guilty as charged’ Dave smiled
Rich as well as handsome, Chuck thought but caught himself in time. What business of his was it if the boy was rich or not. From the time he laid his lips on her, he had decided that he was welcome to her. He didn’t want a woman who could profess to love someone and then kiss another without a thought. He heaved a sigh and wondered why he was so angry at the moment. Refusing to believe what his mind was telling, he began distracting himself by talking to Star
‘So you are the black sheep that refused to join the family business’ Stanley said
‘Yes that would be me’ Dave answered and sat down on Helen’s seat,
‘I will get you another seat Miss’ the house keeper said
‘Please don’t trouble yourself’ Dave said and drew Helen down to sit on him.
Helen sat down not knowing what to do, had she bitten out more than she could chew. Had she over done it in her bid to tell Chuck that she was not one of those silly girls that fell over themselves to sleep with him? Would she now have to fight Dave off? It would serve her right. This was the typical example of falling from frying pan to fire, she said to herself and looked at Chuck and their eyes met but gone was the cockiness, the longing and desire she had seen in his eyes before for her. All she could see was resentment and a cool dismissal. That startled her and she began to wish that she didn’t over do it with Dave. Somehow with her foolishness she had brought back the Chuck she used to know. The Chuck who didn’t care to know she existed.
‘Okay everyone, I guess we are all here, let’s proceed to the beach’ Nma said jovially
People began to get up
Helen felt she should make amends, she felt that Chuck needed some kind of explanation. She wasn’t thinking right, she was aware of that but somehow she didn’t want this Chuck that didn’t care if she existed. She wanted back the Chuck that wanted her.
‘Go ahead Dave, I have a little thing to take care of’ she smiled at him
‘If you say so honey’ he replied and dropped a kiss on lips before she could turn away.
Perfect, she said to herself. How do you do it Helen, you should be given an award for always finding the worst situation to dump yourself. As soon as Dave cleared the door, she turned and saw that the kitchen was empty except for Chuck who was getting another bottle of water from the fridge.
‘You want some water?’ he said turning to her
‘No I… I wanted to explain about Dave’
He smiled and patted her shoulder ‘I don’t care’
Let it go Helen, don’t embarrass yourself more than you have already done, but at that point having him understand seemed more important than the embarrassment.  having him look at her with passion again was worth the embarrassment, she thought.
‘I am sure you must be wondering who he is after what happened this…’
‘Yes you right I did but that was before I figured it all out’ he stopped on his way out of the door.
‘For a moment there I thought you were actually different’
He winked at her and left.
Helen watched him leave, trying without success to stifle a sob. She found the nearest seat, gasping for breath as pain, anguish and shame shot through her. She had him and didn’t even know it. For a fleeting moment she had her heart desire and didn’t even know it, till she lost it. No, she said after several minutes, if that was true, if he felt anything more than the usual, it was not possible even for him to just shut out.
With that she stood up to join the party, determined to find out what his true feelings for her were.

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HOW TO GET HIM TO PROPOSE TO YOU

I know one of the greatest headaches women have daily is how to get the man in their lives to propose. Most times you come down to depths of humility, take trash from him and his family, pamper him and even support his business financially but still no result.

Stop taking trash and follow these steps and please when it works don't forget to invite me to the wedding.

1. Be the Woman Your Man Cannot Resist

Men love women who are confident about themselves. A woman they can trust to stay through thick and thin. Remember, self-confidence is like a magnet that pulls men towards you and makes them surer about their future with you . So, if you are a woman and  your guy knows you would let go when the going gets tough, there is no way he is proposing

2. Communicate Regularly

Some women take it for granted that he would propose just because they have been in the relationship for long. They keep waiting for the proposal, even when the man doesn’t know about their anticipation. The best way to avoid unrealistic expectation is to talk to him about your relationship, ask him what his goals are, discuss what you want from your relationship. The truth is that some men don't think of marriage until it is brought up. So, express yourself and gently solidify your stance.

3. Work on the Relationship First

First of all, are you sure you want to spend the rest of your life with him? Are you sure you are ready and willing to take your relationship to the next level the way it is presently? Do you know each other so well that it is natural to expect marriage? Men look at marriage as a big commitment. something that they want to be absolutely sure about. Before you get him to propose, please work on the relationship first, address issues you are not comfortable with. Issues that are bothering both of you. Doing this tells him you are committed and in for the long haul. The idea of marriage will begin to sip into his mind.

4. Appreciate Him and His Efforts

If you want to get married to your man, you must learn to appreciate him and his efforts.  constantly complaining or faulting his efforts would only make him believe that marriage will be a big mistake with you. Rather, show affection and appreciation for what he does. Men love it when they hear compliments from their women. try to be more supportive and loving to make him understand how much he means to you.

5. Be His Friend

The majority of men fear marriage. They see it as being in bandage. Sometimes you don't blame them because once married they have to put up with too many questions, a lot of nagging and responsibilities they would rather avoid. But you can help them overcome this fear by simply choosing to be a good friend first. If he knows that he can talk to you about his faults without getting judged or criticized, if he knows he can make mistakes and instead of you bringing the whole place down with your ire, that both of you would discuss it and find solutions. he will feel more secure about the relationship and its future. He will also not think about marriage as an imposition. Rather, it will be a logical progression of your relationship.

6. Let Him be the Person He Wants to Be

Regardless of what romance novels tell you, tall, dark and handsome with a bank account to fill an ocean exists only in novels and movies. You also cannot expect your man to be like your friend’s husband, simply because you look up to them as the ‘Perfect Couple’.
accept him for who he is. The more you try to change him, the more suffocating he is going to feel in the relationship and fear any sort of commitment.


Try these tips and see the wonderful turn your relationship will take.

See you at the altar.

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LIFE STYLE

8 FOODS THAT BURNS BELLY FAT FASTER THAN MOST EXERCISE

OATMEAL
Your everyday oats is very low in calorie and filled with fiber that stays in your stomach for hours, reducing the craving for snacks. Mix with low fat, soy or skimmed milk and instead sugar use honey. Don't buy the flavored or sweetened oats,

NUTS,
almonds, coconuts, palm kernel nuts even peanuts, stick to 24 almonds a day or a hand full of peanut a day. Eat them when the craving for snacks comes instead of doughnuts

EGGS
Eggs contain vitamin B12, which your body needs to metabolize fat. Research has shown that people who eat egg for breakfast loose more weight than people who don't.
But Talk to your doc first if your cholesterol is high.

LEAN MEAT AND FISH
Your body burns more calories digesting protein than carbs or fat. Want the leanest meat out there? Go for turkey, but to cut down even more on saturated fat, choose fish. Go for tuna and salmon; they are full of omega-3s, which help prevent stress chemicals that promote fat abs.


WHOLE GRAIN
If you are going to eat carbs, this is the right kind for you. Their fiber component can keep you full for a long time keeping you from getting hungry, so eat wheat instead of Eba, buy brown rice, Wheat bread but be careful that the wheat bread is 100% wheat.

PEANUT BUTTER
Who would have guessed that a kid-friendly food could be waist-friendly, too? PB is packed with niacin, which keeps the digestive system on track and prevents belly bloat. Just keep an eye on portion size: Peanut butter does have a lot of fat, so limit yourself to no more than two tablespoons a day.
Pick all-natural PB, which doesn't contain added sugar.

YOURGHUT:
Calcium helps break down fat and may even prevent it from forming!
But please not these over sweetened version being sold everywhere. Always pick low-fat or fat-free dairy over the full-fat versions.

Avocados
In addition to containing lots of heart-healthy monounsaturated fats, avocados are a terrific source of filling fiber, making them a great food for staving off hunger. Eat Half a cup daily for snack or a meal.

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Good day people

I caught my husband and my younger sister on our matrimonial bed.
I am ten years old in marriage, and childless. I am also a nurse. So sometimes I am on morning or night shift.
My younger sister got admission into our state university after many years of trying and since I live very close to the university my parents asked me to take her in.
one day I was morning shift, I was supposed to go to market from there but I forgot the money in my wardrobe. So I came home and found my husband still on bed and not dressed. He told me he wasn't feeling too well but it was nothing to worry about. So I went to the wardrobe to get the money, he tried to stop me. I was surprised and insisted, he tried to stop me by force as we were struggling my sister came out of there naked and ran out.
I was speechless, I was broken, my sister ran out of the house. My husband was probably too afraid or ashamed to do anything but pace. after while I called my family, they came, my brothers beat up my sister. After everything I left with them.
Now my sister is pregnant and my husband is asking her to keep it since we don't have a child that after she has the baby, we will adopt it. He is also asking me to come back. My parents who have been on my side is beginning to see reasons with him. Only my brothers are saying no that the man is worthless and that both of us should forget him.
I have a feeling that if my sister has that baby, that somehow the affair will continue and she will become the second wife.
People are giving me different advice but they don't understand.
How can I forgive or forget or live in the same house with my sister who betrayed me as my mate? Or be a wife to a man who seduced and slept with my sister on our marriage bed?

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CHAPTER SIX



Uche looked up as Chuck entered in his office looking the devil may care in his designers jeans and T-shirts, his long hair tied at the back. Diamond dotted earrings on both ears. Uche got to his feet to give his long childhood friend a hug.
“How was your flight?”
“Uneventful”
“So how are you and Nma but mostly how is my godson?”
“You are lucky you came back because your godson has been asking me every other minute if you are back and coming and Nma would have killed you if you had disappointed him yet again”
“I promised him and I keep my promise”
“And congratulation again on the hat trick that won you the trophy”
Chuck laughed “You know I am glad because recently I have been thinking of retiring”
Uche looked up sharply “You are still in superb form”
“Yea right”
“Are you alright, you are not sick or something?”
“Of course not, just thinking that’s all, you know I’d like to pay some attention to my business”
“Your fans will miss mostly the the girls”
Chuck laughed “I have not decided yet”
“Have you seen Stanley?”
“One thought Ijeoma and I found myself turning the stirring”
“I don’t want the two of you going for each other’s throat tonight”
“Doesn’t it bother you that the girl is just milking him dry, she doesn’t love him, she only cares for the diamonds, holidays abroad, credit cards?”
“It does but Stanley doesn’t see it that way and till he does, I am not going to chase my friend away because of a worthless girl”
“Someone ought to make him see”
“He is a big boy, some mistakes are better experienced, just like some lessons, besides he is rich enough to afford her, he was just named the second richest man in Africa”
Chuck shook his head “I give up, I am not worried about his bank account, I am worried about his heart”
Uche laughed “Why not worry more about yours; I hear you came back alone?”
Chuck sat back and relaxed, giving his friend a dismissal smile
“What can I say?’
“Don’t tell me she is history?”
“Well it didn’t work out”
“Who are you bringing to the party then?”
“No one for now, but you know me, I had a surprise this morning and I am considering someone”
“Star?”
“No, I can’t date her try as much as I can maybe because she used to sleep with you”
“We never slept together Chuck  and she is a good person”
“Unfortunately she is not the surprise I had this morning” Chuck smiled “Jeez nothing to do for fun around here”
“That’s because some people actually work you know
Chuck chuckles
“So who is this surprise?”
“Can you imagine me and Helen?”
“Nma’s Helen?”
Chuck nods
“No! No! No! Not Helen, you can’t!”
Chuck frowned “If you were not happily married I would have started suspecting you”
“Chuck I know you and the rate you go through women, she is not in your league”
“Like you were not worse than me before you found an angel and had the good sense to marry her”
“Helen is a keeper, you only go after her if you are ready to commit, and she is not the holiday kind of a girl”
“She is a big girl and who knows maybe she is what I need to make a commitment”
Chuck got up
“I thought you came to supervise how your money is growing?”
“Yep but I have changed my mind. How do you guys manage it, sitting at a place for hours?”
He winked and left.
Uche watched him leave… then he remembered Chuck and Helen, he was suddenly wishing that Helen would be what his friend needed to make a commitment.

Helen knew it was time to go if she wanted to make it to the party but some how she couldn’t find the strength to get up from her sitting position. She was dreading the party and at the same time looking forward to it. It wasn’t just the party she was dreading, it was Chuck, it was hard to believe that she was looking forward to seeing him and at the same time dreading it. She didn’t have the foggiest idea of what to say to him or how to act when she would see him again. She wondered if he was thinking about that kiss the same way she has been thinking about it. She could still feel herself being crushed to the wall and being kissed senseless, her body on fire wanting more. She couldn’t believe she wanted more of those hot kisses but somehow she knew she might not be getting them again ever. She wasn’t just his type; guys like Chucks don’t fall for a nobody like her. She was just Nma’s staff and nothing more, she sighed. She wished, what did she wish? She asked herself, that things were different? No she cautioned herself. she lost her memories for a reason. She came to work for Nma for a reason. If only she could find out what these reasons were maybe she would believe a little that someone like Chuck might actually fall in love with her. That he would spend the whole day thinking about their kiss and devise ways to kiss her again. She sighed again but it all seemed like pipe dreams to her. It’s  nothing but a dream that would never come true. She was Helen, a fictitious name she picked up. Even if Chuck was to love her, she could never love him back unless her memories came back. After all she could be somebody’s wife or mother or fiancée for all she knew.
A cough sounded from the door and she looked up sharply and found Nma by the door.
“Are you alright” Nma asked concerned, she had been watching Helen for a time and saw series of bitter emotion pass through her face and she wondered again, how little she knew about Helen.
“I am fine thank you” Helen answered trying to smile “is it time already”
Nma nods “I thought you would like a ride to Eden or is prince charming picking you up?”
“Prince charming?”
Nma laughed “I told you your time would come and I will tease you as mercilessly as you teased me”
“You are mistaken, he is not my prince charming, I just met him”
“Just, who was it flirting with him during our last show?”
Helen laughed “Okay you win but he is not my prince charming and he is not picking me up, so thanks for the ride”
“You are welcome”
Helen stood up and followed Nma out, dreading every step she took.

Helen looked out of the window of Nma’s metallic black Mercedes G-wagon. She watched the scenery but not seeing it. She had never dreaded going to Nma’s house before but today was different. She was afraid of all things that could go wrong, she was afraid of making a fool of herself where Chuck was concerned. She wanted this party over and done with so she could go back to figuring out who she was. She had let it slide for too long. Before she had been too afraid of what she would find, too afraid of the man in the mask and later too afraid of telling Nma because she had left it for too long. But right now she was no longer afraid. She was going to do a lot researches, she would visit specialist. No matter what it took, she would find out who she was. Then she sighed, she also had to figure out a way to tell Nma. She heaved another smile.
‘If I didn’t know any better, I would think that you don’t want to come to my house’ Nma said staring at her briefly before turning to road
‘Of course I wouldn’t miss Shawn’s party for the world’
‘Glad to hear it but something is bothering Helen’
‘Really I am fine Nma, I think I have been over doing it, trying to impress you, Amber and your mother in law is not an easy undertaking’
Nma smiled ‘Whenever you are ready to talk, I am here’
‘I am sorry’ Helen said lamely
Of course Nma would see through her lies. She wanted to tell her badly but the time was not right. She would tell her when… you had better make it soon before she finds out by herself her mind whispered. Knowing Nma she could just figure it out just like that. Helen stifled another sigh. She would tell Nma but first she would visit a doctor, take the  first steps into finding out who she was, then she would have enough to tell her.
Helen turned to Nma and smiled hesitantly ‘ I do really want to tell you but I need to figure it out a bit more in my mind'
Nma squeezed her hands and nodded as she drew to a stop in front of the castle that was Eden.

Coming out of the car, Helen could hear a pair of tiny feet running towards them and shouting ‘Mama! Mama!’ the tiny feet ran into his mother’s already spread hands. Nma gave her son a hug and kissed him all over.
‘where is Grandma?
‘hello Love’ Helen said
‘ta hinhin’ the boy exclaimed and jumped down his mother’s body and into Helen’s hands


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LIFESTYLE (LOOK NATURAL AND FABULOUS THIS VALENTINE)

Becoming a naturally beautiful is not a day's job. You can decide to go without make up and look OK but we are going for fabulous, where there is no spot, pimple or dullness. You can be radiant, smooth and beautiful with out makeup if you take the following steps

DETOXIFICATION :

Beauty starts from the inside, a little half lemon or lime in full glass of warm water will help wash our the debris inside you, help your become leaner and your skin brighter.

CLEANSING
You don't only cleanse before or after make up, our climate is too rough to go without cleansing whether you applied make up or not.

MIND YOUR DIET
Many people don’t realise that the skin is our largest organ. It needs caring for both inside and out. To help it look beautiful without any makeup, feed it properly, with lots of water and vitamins. Also ensure that you get enough sleep and Abstain from alcohol if natural beauty and looks is what you are going for.
EYE BROW
Groom your self, enhance your natural features, pluck your eye brows into a perfect arch. Believe me even without eye pencil you will look smart.

SMILE
A genuine smile really does make anyone look great. People will notice your smile rather than any ‘flaws’ – and they certainly won’t notice that you’re makeup-free. Avoid a forced grin, as that won’t look at all natural, but let your smile reach your eyes.

CONFIDENCE
Don't let anybody shut you down, tell you you are not beautiful with or without make up. If you believe you are fabulously beautiful, you will naturally act it and people will have no choice but to see you that way.

LASHES
No, you don't need mascara to bring out your lashes and make them look voluminous! There are actually other natural ways to pump up your lashes without reaching for that make up bag. One way to make your lashes Look darker, fuller and longer is by combing through with a layer of Vaseline. Vaseline really is a miracle product! It could be used as a solution to almost any female problem, so why should this be any different?

BRIGHTEN YOUR EYES
You might feel like your eyes become dull and indistinguishable without any eyeliner or eyeshadow, but don't think that only makeup can bring our your eyes. Simply using eyes drops to wake up your whole Face and make the whites of your eyes appear clearer can make the difference. Your natural beauty can stand out without any artificial help!

MOISTURIZING
 Even if you have oily skin, moisturizing can prevent your body from excreting excess oil and help lock in moisture to keep your the surface of your skin even and smooth. Always wanted your skin to be as smooth as a baby's bum? Start moisturizing every day!

PROTECT YOUR SKIN FROM UV RAYS
There is no way you can consider your skin to be healthy without protecting it from the harmful UV rays. Not only does sunscreen protection result in facial improvement only after a couple of days but it also benefits your appearance in the long run, helping your skin age gracefully. Make applying sunscreen a couple of minutes before you leave your house a ritual even on the gloomy days, and you won't regret it in the end.

WHITEN YOUR TEETH
You don't have to resort to harmful whitening strips that often damage your enamel, but reach the effect of white smile by constantly using whitening toothpaste and mouthwash. Believe it or not this combination can lead to very effective results. In addition there are tons of natural remedies for a brighter smile!

HYGIENE
Hygiene is the key concept in keeping up a good appearance. Oftentimes you don't need a ton of makeup to look presentable! Clean hair, nice nails, clean clothes and controlled body odor should be the foundation of your beauty so you should always prioritize your hygiene first before using additional tricks to enhance  your appearance.

LIPSTICK ALTERNATIVE
There is a no need to use lipsticks or lip stains to change the color of your lips because in the end your natural lip color will always suit you best. Exfoliate your lips every week to get rid of the dead skin and moisturize them so they become soft and plushy, all you need is a toothbrush to lightly rub your lips with and any lip balm of your preference.

now that you know, go and look fabulously and naturally beautiful!

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RELATIONSHIPS) LOVERS DAYS SPECIAL)

Amber tips

I know the tradition is for a guy to find a girl he likes and ask her out. Fine, I am not quarreling with that tradition but what if it is a girl who finds the guy attractive, what does she do? Pray for the guy to return her feelings? The truth is that you can actually do more than that. You can find a way to get the guy to ask you without it seeming obvious. And the guy would think it was all his idea.

1.Get Noticed
He cannot ask you out if he doesn’t know you exist. It is good to be casual, act as if you don’t care, but make sure that he notices you

2) Be Sexy and look good
People are attracted to people who are attractive, so please take care of your appearance.  Looking good is very-very important. Get your hair done, work out, and maybe get your teeth whitened. When you feel good about yourself, people notice. Dress in what suits your body best.
3) Look Interested
When you have the chance to talk to him, appear interested whatever he is saying and pay compliments to him. Guys like to think you know and like what they are talking about. Common interests are a must for a relationship.
4) Be Flirty
Flirt with him. Give him signals that he interests you. Try and make maximum eye contact with him. Give him some flirty glances across the room, bar, office etc. look him in the eye and if he asks what? Just say it is nothing but your eyes are beautiful.
5) Make a common friend
Become friends with friend. His friend could be a way to communicate to your crush. He will also come in handy when you want additional information about your crush.
6) Make him jealous
Have fun with others guys and make sure he is watching you.  talk or flirt with someone else when he is watching. Be sure not to overdo it. This is just a way to send him a small message that that you have other options.
7) Never be clingy
Value your independence. Don’t stalk him, it will only make him weary of you, this might build fear of you in him or you might come across as desperate to him.

Most importantly, you should not worry too much on how to get him to ask you out or love you. Don't think of drastically changing yourself to suit his likes and wants. He  should like you the way you are. If he doesn't, just accept the fact that he is not the one for you. Love is not a one night affair. In the end all that matters is that you love yourself.

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10 WAYS TO SPICE UP YOUR VALENTINE DAY
In my observation valentine day means two things in this country. Gifts and getting laid.
In my own view there is more to valentine than that.

Here are ten ways to spice up your lovers day.

1. Re-enact your first date: for most people, first date are memorable because that is the day most efforts were used to make an impression, to show love and care, to prove the relationship will work or to prove how happy you will make each other.
So by re enacting your first date, it reminds you why you fell in love with each other in the first place.

2. Send a romantic message: it could be a text, or bbm voice but if you really want to be romantic, write a letter, kiss it all over or just where you seal with a red lip stick, spray your perfume on it and send it to him before you meet for valentine celebration.

3. Take a walk: just as the sun turns into a orange bloom or the cloud darkens. Take a stroll holding hands and simply enjoy nature and each other. Make a run for it if rains or snows. Getting physical could put you in that love mood

4. Get a massage: book massage with your partner. While you are lying side by side and relaxing, letting your bodies get pampered, look at each other and let your eyes say how you feel. You may hold hands if you can.

5. Visit the less privileged: you and your partner could spend some time with the orphans, motherless or those in the hospital. Just go with gifts and have fun with them. This may be the time to show him how perfect a family you could be or how good mother you will make, you'd surprised that he will pop the question.

6: look good: don't wait for him to take you shopping on vals day. Take yourself and buy what you are going to wear from sexy red lingerie to the most fabulous attire you can afford. Do your hair and add a touch of red. This is the day to look and feel fabulous as ever.

7. Make it a weekend getaway: it is just perfect that this vals day fell on a weekend, instead of spending the whole time at home like you always do, make it a weekend getaway. Go to a resort or spend a little money and stay in a five star hotel and get that five star treatment. Believe it or not luxury makes romance more exciting.

8. Listen to love song all day: you can do this together (strongly recommended) as the music wafts out from the stereo, look at him/her especially when the song says something you feel deeply. This way you are telling each other how you feel without words. You can do this while sitting quietly together and holding each other or while you are in the kitchen and he is somewhere else..i assure you the lyrics of the song will bring him to you. You can listen to it by yourself while getting ready for your date. It will put you in that romantic mood.

9. Cook her dinner: most men think this is a woman thing or it makes them less manly. But you don't know how romantic a woman feels seeing her man in apron And tinkering about in the kitchen exclusively for her. It makes her feel special. It doesn't matter if you are superb chef or you are so pathetic that you burn the food. She will feel loved, special and extravagantly happy..and you would have achieved your aim.

10. Dance the night away: when I say this, I do not mean to shoki or shake body, I mean to some beautiful love song. Do this at the balcony where the wind will be soft and chilly, or at a bar or restaurant that offers a dance area. Or in your living room

I know most girls will go to work with their overnight bag and then go home to their boyfriends. the weekend is spent just like that on his bed.
Ask for romance, nothing as romantic as dressing up and waiting to be picked up by your date. You will feel like Cinderella waiting for her prince.

It is a day for romance, for love and not lust.
If you are single, don't be left out and don't become desperate to find someone to spend the day with. You will only get laid for nothing. Dress up and go out, go dancing, see movie, eat out. Who knows some lonely single man you might meet.

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HUNGRY HEARTS

Dear readers

I hope you are all doing good.
Please I need your help. Yes I know that I share the blame here but right now I am trying to do what is right.
I have been dating Fred for three years now. He lives abroad and comes back twice a year.  The relationship is not perfect but I stayed with him cos I love him.
He cheats on me regularly, when he is doing that he would flaunt the girl on his bbm. We will quarrel and he will beg then I would forgive. His excuse is that I am not there with him and that he is a man with needs, that those girls are not important.
Six months back he began dating this very beautiful white girl. And this time around when I complained he broke up with me. A month later I began dating Mike.
Four months later Fred came back and apologized, he said he wants us to get married now. So quickly I tried to break up with Mike. Mike refused, he would cry and beg then I would pity him each time I try.  I found myself dating two guys. My fiancée and my boyfriend until my big sister noticed and warned me. So I forcefully broke up with Mike.
The trouble began when we went for Fred's sister's birthday party and Mike was there. Him and Fred used to be close before but not anymore. Mike started trying to become close to him after that but I fought. It was like we are fighting over Fred. Then he resorted to blackmail. He said if I don't come and see him, he would tell Fred all about us.
I opted to tell Fred first after all I have forgiven a lot but my girlfriend said no that I would loose him if I did. That he is with me cos he thinks I am different. If I tell him he would realize that I am not. That is true Fred always says I different cos not all girls will faithfully wait for a guy abroad. He is very proud of that.
My big sis says I should tell b4 mike does. That Fred would get angry but he would realize it was his fault I strayed and forgive.

Please readers which of these advice do I take?

Thank you.

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