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WHAT DOES IT REALLY MEAN (DO YOUR BEST AND LEAVE THE REST TO GOD)

 

Hey everyone

How has this week been treating for you? I trust we are winging it and winning. Myself I am trying to hang in there and do my very possible best. I believe that when we do our best in any situation we are in, if nothing else happens we will feel the peace of having tried, of having given till there was no more to give. and then we can with a peaceful heart leave the rest to God.

One thing bothers me though, how do you know when you have done your best, how do you know when to say there is nothing else I can do? For some people there may be an easy answer to this but not for me. Especially with my business, I give and give and do and do and I don't believe I have given enough till I have achieved success. I mean how can it be my best if I have not achieved my goals?

How do you do know when to leave the rest to God as the adage goes? I have been trying to make my first movie for sometime now and nothing seem to be working. I have practically tried all ways and done all things I can do, spoken to brands, business partners, friends and family and nothing seem to have worked. I want to know is it time to throw in towel, fold my hands and leave it to God?

I need answers readers. Can I even be happy doing nothing to bring out my goals? Is this what it is all about, knowing when to cease adding work to faith and trusting that God would perform all the work?

The answer I keep coming up with is that I can't give up. There must still be other ways and other things I can do but I still keep wondering, if I keep trying to do it by myself when and how do I trust God enough to allow Him to do the rest. As I am writing, I keep getting the inspiration that one does not exist without the other

That is faith, work, patience and prayers. These four must come first before miracles. I cannot have faith and not have work to show for it. The work here may sound like this prayer by Nephi a Book of Mormon prophet when he was asked to build a ship to cross the many waters and he asked. 'whither shall I go to find ore to molten' so that he can make the tools he needed to build the ship. he and his family had been travelling alone in wilderness for eight years and had no way of cutting timbers let alone to build a ship. The lesson here is that he didn't put his helpless situation first. He didn't expect God to understand his lack of resources and throw down tools from Heaven to build the ship. After all it was Him who commanded them to take the journey in the first place. He was not afraid of the work so instead of asking for already made tools, He asked for where he could find the raw materials to make the tools. This story has always been a great lesson for me. At this point, could he not have accepted that he has done enough and asked God to do the rest. The eight year journey on foot has worn him and family out, the least He could do was provide a ship or at most the tools to build it. 

Another story that inspires me is also from the book of Mormon. It is also about another prophet who needed to cross the great deep with his family. This time around they built what they called barges and made it water tight to hold water like a dish. the problem was that there was no source of light and the prophet despaired how they were going to travel in the sea in darkness so he asked the Lord but Lord answered with a question 'What would thou have me do for you so you might have light' the prophet didn't expect this question, he had thought the Lord with a flick of his wrist would give them light. what he didn't know was that the Lord would ask him to put on his thinking cap. So he had make use of his brain and come up with a solution of how best his mode of transportation might be lighted.

The truth is I still don't know where the adage do your best and leave the rest to God came from or what it really means but this I know, Heavenly Father expects us to use our brains. He expects us to never give up. He wants us to do our part. And when we have done that, then His grace is sufficient. 

Another scripture goes like this 'For behold, it is not meet that I should command in all things, for he that is compelled in all things, the same is a slothful and not wise servant; wherefore he receiveth no reward' the next verse  goes like this 'Verily I say, men should be anxiously engaged in good cause and do many things of their own freewill, and bring to pass much righteousness. for the power is in them, wherein they are agents unto themselves. And in as much as men do good they shall in no wise loose their reward. But he that doeth not anything until he is commanded, and receiveth the commandment with a doubtful heart, and keepeth it with slothfulness, the same is damned.

So I believe in prayers, I believe in having faith that prayers will be answered, I also believe in work, the readiness to do what is necessary to achieve our goals and I believe in patience not just for prayers to be answered but with ourselves and our efforts. If these things are present in all our endeavors, then we are a success already.

Pray like it depends solely on God, work like it depends solely on you. Get on your knees and pray but get on feet and work. If you get this formula right then your result would be success.

Heavenly Father has blessed us all with talents and gifts, it is time to start thinking about how to develop these talents. 

I have many gifts, teaching motivational and inspiring topic as you have verily well read from this post. I also have the gift of writing. 

I have published two eBooks. Please click the links below to read them and oh they are not motivational books, they are romance novels. Did I just surprise you, you don't know the half till you read my romance novels

I love you all and hope that my post today touches you

enjoy the rest of your week no matter what it brings. Trust God and don't ever give up.

Click the links below to read my books

WHEN THE HEART KNOW

BILLIONAIRE BAD BOYS SERIES BOOK 1

AMAZON KINDLE

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07YLX4WGW   WHEN THE HEART KNOWS

OKADABOOKS

https://okadabooks.com/book/about/when_the_heart_knows/29061 WHEN THE HEART KNOWS 

BAM BOOKS

https://bambooks.io/Book/BookDetail/When-the-Heart-Knows/11975 WHEN THE HEART KNOWS 

PAY HIP

https://payhip.com/b/bM1R  WHEN THE HEART KNOWS

AMAZON PAPER BACK

https://amzn.to/31EOhwI

EVERY WAKING MOMENT 

BILLIONAIRE BAD BOYS SERIES BOOK 2

AMAZON KINDLE

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B08F3R3SZK/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_bibl_vppi_i0  EVERY WAKING MOMENT

OKADA BOOKS

 https://okadabooks.com/book/about/every_waking_moment/35661  EVERY WAKING MOMENT 

PAY HIP 

https://payhip.com/b/pC3w EVERY WAKING MOMENT 

AMAZON PAPERBACK 

https://amzn.to/3kQfpBC

RESOURCES 

BOOK OF MORMON

DOCTRINE AND COVENANT

https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/?lang=eng

 

click link to know more about them.

I HAVE A DREAM

 

Hello everyone! 

I trust you had a great week? I know, I know, it was tough, or good or happy or even successful but one thing I am sure about is it wasn't easy. Yeah it wasn't easy but here we are grateful to our Heavenly Father that we are safely at the weekend to rejuvenate and get ready for another week so we can try again because we can't give up neither can we give in.

Much like life, this life is not easy, not even the wealthiest man on earth can say that. I mean if we look around us the evidence is clear. We can only go on living and striving to be better versions of ourselves no matter how tough or how sad the journey might be.

This is pretty much how my life has been. Right from a young age, I have always been a dreamer. I would sit and gaze at nothing but space yet I am seeing a another world of happiness and love, where easy really does exist and this would help me get through my day no matter how challenging it is.

Maybe that is why I am writer, and from my genre of writing you could tell that really a lot of my time was spent day dreaming. And when I am not daydreaming of tall, dark and handsome heroes and the women who love them, you would find me observing. Observing the world and every thing that makes it up. the rising and setting of the sun, the wind, the cloud when they are dark and brooding angrily warning about a coming rain with winds that would bend trees and swirl dusts. Most times scenes and occurrences in nature like these are all I need to conjure up a powerful love story

You would find me at night looking at the stars and moon and imagining that I am somewhere in Caribbeans, the dwarf palm trees in our compound would become coconut trees in my head and the red sand turns to white and there I am sitting at the beach and most times with a handsome stranger looking at me with so much intensity and the power of his elemental gaze would spark a flame in my heart and we would spend our Caribbean night talking the night away like we have known each other for a thousand years.

And If I doing none of those, I would be with my grandmothers.  I remember my grandmothers, they both lived over a hundred years old. I sat at their feet each chance I got and quizzed them about their lives growing up before the white men came. Though they were mildly curious at my interest but they were only too happy to oblige me. Learning about their time, their social life, the men they loved, their traditions, religion, beliefs and how strong they had to be in a world that subdued women made me want to tell their stories.

Oh how I love period stories, I have written a few of them and have few synopsis of more I wish to write soon. One of those stories just came to my mind now. I titled it Ebubedike Son of Thunder. I wrote it when I was between fourteen and sixteen. That story is going to change our notion of our land before colonization forever. This story will be out next year. You would love it, It is about a demi god who comes to save his people from tyranny. and oh it is a romance too. I don't think I would ever write anything that does not tell a powerful love story. 

I believe in love event though it is yet to happen to me. Sometimes I think it is because I have created so much fantasy that I expect it to be my reality. Maybe I am waiting for one of the heroes in my stories to become my reality. I should do better because I create this fantastic world to get away from the harsh realities of my life not that it is my life, NOTE TO SELF. 

The truth is no matter how much I daydream or create a fantasy world, I know who I am, I know what I want and I would get it. Yeah the road map to getting all that I want may not always be clear, may most times be filled with so much bumps and road blocks and even dead ends yet I won't give up, I would stay on that road trudging on till I get to my destination.

My name is Chioma Onuoha, I am an author, TV personality and entrepreneur. All my life I have been driven with this ferocious need and a powerful force to tell stories, to tell the African story especially about the continent before the white men came.

I began story telling as far back as I can remember, I would gather my numerous siblings together and tell them fairy tales of love and romance made up on the go. One would ask why did she start so late to explore what obviously have been her calling on this earth? It's simple, distractions and fear. I feared Nigerians would not read because we don't really have a reading culture. And I became distracted with what was lucrative at the time, screenplays.

Over the years I have delved into screenplays and have written block buster movies and TV series some of which were nominated for awards both locally and internationally. Then I started my own media and entertainment content production, sales and marketing company Amber Falls Production. I produce and host my premium TV talk show magazine Amber World. I also produce a lifestyle content AMBER VOGUE.

Even with these achievements, I still feel incomplete not just because I promised my grandmothers that their voices will be heard, their morals emulated and heroism known through the stories I would tell but because I yearned and still yearn deeply to go back to my first love and passion which is writing novels about exceptional heroes and the heroines who love them.

So please, read my novels, they come from somewhere deep inside me. When I write, words cannot describe on what dimension I am. I become another person, like this power over takes me and my heroes and heroines play out their story and all I need to do is watch and write down their antics.

My fear was that Nigerians would not read, because first of all I write our story, the Nigerian story. So if the people whose story I tell, the people I write for first do not read, how can I convince the rest of the world to do so.

I am pleading with you today to support me and click the links below to read my books.

I hope my story would touch you to become more optimistic, more hopeful, less afraid and more determined to go out there next week and try again, work towards achieving your goals.

Have the most beautiful and profitable week

Chioma

LINKS TO READ BELOW

WHEN THE HEART KNOWS 

BILLIONAIRE BAD BOYS SERIES BOOK 1 

AMAZON KINDLE

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07YLX4WGW   WHEN THE HEART KNOWS

OKADABOOKS

https://okadabooks.com/book/about/when_the_heart_knows/29061 WHEN THE HEART KNOWS 

BAM BOOKS

https://bambooks.io/Book/BookDetail/When-the-Heart-Knows/11975 WHEN THE HEART KNOWS 

PAY HIP

https://payhip.com/b/bM1R  WHEN THE HEART KNOWS 

EVERY WAKING MOMENT 

BILLIONAIRE BAD BOYS SERIES BOOK 2

AMAZON KINDLE

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B08F3R3SZK/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_bibl_vppi_i0  EVERY WAKING MOMENT

OKADA BOOKS

 https://okadabooks.com/book/about/every_waking_moment/35661  EVERY WAKING MOMENT 

PAY HIP 

https://payhip.com/b/pC3w EVERY WAKING MOMENT 

 

 

 

 

 

(HUNGRY HEARTS) IS COMING BACK YAAY!!!!!!!

Hello Fam

Barka de Sallah!!!

How are you all enjoying this holiday? With no parties, no hang outs and no clubbing. It's tough right? Well don't despair much, I have one tip for you on how not to get bored this long holiday.

Now pay attention.

Find a comfortable place and curl up with this steamy romance novel dripping with passion and desire. What romance novel are we talking about again? EVERY WAKING MOMENT. Book 2 in the billionaire Bad boys series.

go read on the links below and thank me later.

I promise you that I am never stopping again. you will get regular write ups from me from now on and that includes reviving some of our favorite segments like HUNGRY HEARTS. Even mentioning this gladens my heart.

I will announce the date I am going to start posting Hungry Hearts again so stay tuned. You are not familiar with Hungry Hearts? It is a segment on this blog where people email me their true life experiences regarding matters of the heart and asking you readers to advice them by commenting your thoughts on the issue. It could be about a heart break, a crush, friendship or family dynamics. Read up on the blog to familiarize yourself with it but i assure you, you will never look at life same way again.

On my next write up I am going to gist you what has been happening in my life all these while I have been silent. Get ready for the gist of a life time. There is no story more touching like a true life story. so I guess Hungry Hearts begins with my story. Did I just say when hungry heart would start again. I bet I just did. On my next post. so please watch out for it.

I guess my message for you today is to be happy, Life is tough, I know this from personal experience but this I have also come to know, happiness maybe free but it is hard to find. so indulge yourself with activities that will bring you happiness. Remember evil and wickedness will never bring you lasting happiness.

So today if you are not sure what can bring you happiness, read my romance novel. I promise you wouldn't want to put down for one second. 

For those of you who know my writing style, you know I paint love and loving in dark but vivid colors consistent with the volatile nature of an elemental force. Short version, it is a once in a life time kind of experience. Some will say I have to much pride describing myself as a writer but I tell it is not pride, it is confidence in my craft but the fact I cannot ignore is that only you can tell if it is pride or confidence. so go ahead and read

Once again the summary of the novel is below and so also are the links.

happy reading fam

and if you enjoy what you read, leave a comment here or on the app you read

thank you and God bless you

 EVERY WAKING MOMENT SYNOPSIS

 

 

A BILLIONAIRE NOT LOOKING FOR LOVE

 

Billionaire, international soccer star and sexiest man alive Chuck Obi Okoha has sworn never to pass his mother’s monstrous genes to the next generation, he has also sworn never let anyone know who his real mother is or what she did for a living, He has done everything in his power to keep his life before his adoption into the Okoha’s family a secret. The consequences of his vow meant never marrying and never having a child. Until Helen fell into his arms literally, another tortured hero with a past to keep secret too.

 

 

TORTURED SOUL WHO CAN’T GET HIM OFF HER MIND

 

Helen has had amnesia for three years and counting. A secret she hides from all her friends. she shouldn't be in love not knowing who she was and what she was but she couldn’t seem to get him off her mind, she is irrevocably in love with the most handsome and wealthiest heart breaker of all times, she should find a way to fall out of in love with him because she is also a danger to him. There are assassins after her, her mind tells her to run away from him to keep him safe but her feet keeps running back into his arms.

 

SECRETS

 

Each having a past so dark that they are too afraid divulge a word of it, how would they survive this love that never was meant to be.

 

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https://payhip.com/b/pC3w EVERY WAKING MOMENT PAY HIP

https://payhip.com/b/bM1R  WHEN THE HEART KNOWS PAY HIP

 https://okadabooks.com/book/about/every_waking_moment/35661  EVERY WAKING MOMENT OKADA BOOKS

https://bambooks.io/Book/BookDetail/When-the-Heart-Knows/11975 WHEN THE HEART KNOWS BAM BOOKS

https://okadabooks.com/book/about/when_the_heart_knows/29061   WHEN THE HEART KNOWS OKADA BOOKS

MORE PLATFORMS WILL ANNOUNCED ON NEXT POST

 

EVERY WAKING MOMENT BILLIONAIRE BAD BOYS SERIES BOOK 2 FULL NOVEL OUT (WHAT A FUN WAY TO SPEND THE HOLIDAY)

Hello everyone

It's been a long time I know but that is not the worst of it, the worst of part of it is knowing how many times I have disappointed you. To say I am sorry doesn't begin to cut it but nevertheless I am truly sorry for all the promises broken. One thing I am glad about though is that I show my remorse and give my apology bearing gifts.

If you were an ardent follower of my blog, you must have read some of my romance novels. WHEN THE HEART KNOWS which I completed here on the blog and EVERY WAKING MOMENT which I am sorry to say I left half finished to the disappointment of many.

The good news is these two novels are completed and published on these platforms. You can hurry up to go and read on OKADA BOOK, BAMBOOKS, PAY HIP, amazon kindle

BELOW IS THE SYNOPSIS OF EVERY WAKING MOMENT, BOOK 2 IN THE BILLIONAIRE BAD BOYS BOYS SERIES.

You may also catch up with book 1 here or on the platforms mentioned

And oh before I forget, in 7 days I will be deleting When the heart knows from this blog, so hurry up and catch up.

Enjoy the synopsis below  and as usual fam, share with friends, families and colleaagues

What a fun way to spend this long holiday with no hang outs, no clubs or parties.

why not relax with this steamy hot romance novel just for ONE THOUSAND NAIRA

A BILLIONAIRE NOT LOOKING FOR LOVE

Billionaire, international soccer star and sexiest man alive Chuck Obi Okoha has sworn never to pass his mother’s monstrous genes to the next generation, he has also sworn never let anyone know who his real mother is or what she did for a living, He has done everything in his power to keep his life before his adoption into the Okoha’s family a secret. The consequences of his vow meant never marrying and never having a child. Until Helen fell into his arms literally, another tortured hero with a past to keep secret too.

TORTURED SOUL WHO CAN’T GET HIM OFF HER MIND

Helen has had amnesia for three years and counting. A secret she hides from all her friends. she shouldn't be in love not knowing who she was and what she was but she couldn’t seem to get him off her mind, she is irrevocably in love with the most handsome and wealthiest heart breaker of all times, she should find a way to fall out of in love with him because she is also a danger to him. There are assassins after her, her mind tells her to run away from him to keep him safe but her feet keeps running back into his arms.

SECRETS

Each having a past so dark that they are too afraid divulge a word of it, how would they survive this love that never was meant to be.

https://payhip.com/b/pC3w EVERY WAKING MOMENT PAY HIP

https://payhip.com/b/bM1R  WHEN THE HEART KNOWS PAY HIP

 https://okadabooks.com/book/about/every_waking_moment/35661  EVERY WAKING MOMENT OKADA BOOKS

https://bambooks.io/Book/BookDetail/When-the-Heart-Knows/11975 WHEN THE HEART KNOWS BAM BOOKS

https://okadabooks.com/book/about/when_the_heart_knows/29061   WHEN THE HEART KNOWS OKADA BOOKS

MORE PLATFORMS WILL ANNOUNCED ON NEXT POST

When the heart knows is now on okada book

Love is the sum of the heat it brings, with the slightest touch, the spark of chemistry that comes with a mere look,  that earth shattering need that trancends will, to touch and be touched. The quiet but quick sizzling of passion in every thought, the burning desire in every whisper, the joyous romance in every date that make the heart sing. #whentheheartknows a romance novel like never before. Click to read the full novel https://bit.ly/2kz1ZQp
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AMBER WORLD AJEBO COMEDIAN

For all lovers of amber romanx, It is jubilation time as WHEN THE HEART KNOWS the novel will be out soon followed closely by EVERY WAKING MOMENT. I have also decided to write Stanley's story, guess who his lady love is. Or who would you want for him in their circle of friends. After the guesses, I will give the answer.

Keep reading, keep sharing, this blog is coming back for good

A LIST STARS PARTIES HARD AT LADY GAGA 30TH BIRTHDAY PARTY

The club No Name in Hollywood was the place to be on Saturday night as Lady Gaga turns 30

The pop star  celebrated with fiancé and Chicago Fire actor Taylor Kinney 34, as well as a few A list  celebrity friends. Gaga, who turns 30 on Monday, wore a glittering gold boat neck mini dress with puffed up short sleeves and thick black belt, paired with black strappy platform peep-toe pumps and a sparkling Lorraine Schwartz choker.

The guest list included big names such as Taylor Swift26Kate Hudson 36,  Suki Waterhouse  24,  Lana Del Rey  and a whole host of others

To crown the night, Gaga performed at the party, which many guests said was the best part of the night.

AMBER ROMANCE

EVERY WAKING MOMENT

CHAPTER ELVEVEN

Helen saw Nma and Tessy out in front waiting for them. From the loud sound of music she realized that the party had already begun. Chuck was still holding her hands, the way they walked together one would think they were a couple with their children. She closed her eyes and let herself dream, relying on the man leading her for direction. She wondered if her dreams would ever come true, if the day would come when she would become Mrs. Obi. She smiled at the thought and opened her eyes.

‘The questions in their eyes is incredible’ Chuck observed

‘I would be curious too’ she laughed

‘Think we should assuage their curiosity?’

‘You wouldn’t dare’ she said in mock horror but still moved away from him because she knew how fast he could be when he had the mind to.

He smiled and drew her back to him. ‘I was only teasing’

‘With you it is difficult to know’ she whispered as they reached Nma.

‘Hey you two’ Tessy greeted as she took her daughter from Helen

‘I didn’t realize I gave you child minding duty too’ Nma teased Chuck

Chuck laughed ‘would you believe me if I said I wanted to see my nephew?’

‘Hmmm no’

‘Okay then, there you have your answer’ he laughed and kissed her forehead

‘You are beautiful’ he said to Nma and smiled at Tessy ‘you know I have a crush on you’

Tessy laughed ‘is no woman safe with you?’

He smiled ‘Oh it is the other way round honey but for you. Anytime you get tired of grumpy Felix, my offer still stands’

Tessy smiled and blew him kiss ‘your charms are wasted on me and besides all the charms in the world wouldn’t save you from grumpy Felix if he overhears’

Helen watched the exchange with something akin to jealousy. But she knew better, she knew it was all words and nothing more. She knew he would never betray his friends and for that she loved him even more. It was not possible that a human could love so much, so much that her body quaked with it. How she wished that he would love her back then it wouldn’t matter, nothing would. Not her amnesia, not her past.

‘You two look cute together’ Tessy observed winking at Helen

Helen looked down shyly. And wondered what he thought about that. Chuck chuckled ‘Do we?’ he asked and smiled at her.

‘Yes she is everything a smart man would want to have and keep forever’ Nma rejoined

Chuck suddenly looked at her and she looked up at him and the world stood still. There was no Nma or Tessy or the outside world. Helen was lost in his green eyes and in the emotion he couldn’t hide. She took step towards him drawn by a power more powerful than anything she had ever felt. And so powerless it rendered her that all she wanted at that instant was to be wrapped in his hands, to hold and be held, to touch and be touched.

Chuck knew he had to look away but he couldn’t, he was floundering and looking for something to hold onto before he fell into the whirlpool that was her brown eyes. Such power, such hold was more than anything earthly and somehow he believed in that moment that this was the woman for him. He had to have her, he had to know, he had to explore.

So caught were they in each other and the intense feeling they could easily invoke in each other that they  didn’t hear her at first.

‘Hi Chuck darling’ she repeated

If Nma and Tessy could, they would have banished former most beautiful girl in Nigeria, Chuck’s ex girl friend to oblivion and beyond because in that  moment they realized what before had not being certain that Chuck and Helen needed each other and together they would find the most precious of all, love.

Helen was the first to turn and her heart skipped several beats when she saw the most beautiful in Nigeria looking breathtaking like an Amazon queen smiling at Chuck. Chuck turned and the spell was broken. The feeling suspended though both could still feel the after quakes of it. Her body vibrated with it and she felt energized and weakened at the same time. How was it possible, how could it be? No human had the right to have this kind of feeling over another human.

Chuck could have kissed Rissa for choosing that moment to interrupt what he couldn’t even begin to fathom. He became angry when he saw that his hands shook. What was going on, what power is this, what feeling. He needed heavy dose of reality and distraction and it presented itself in the person of his ex and he couldn’t have been happier seeing another human being.

“Rissa’ he called and she practically flew into his hands

Helen watched with raging jealousy, she felt like scratching the beauty queen’s eyes out but instead she took a deep breath and was about to leave before she gave in to the raging intentions and embarrassed herself.

‘Everyone this is Rissa’

‘Rissa this is Nma’

‘She needs no introduction, we are good friends. She is my designer’ Rissa said jovially

Nma forced a smile, being a lucrative client didn’t stop her from wishing for a whirlpool to carry the beauty queen  away’

Chuck turned to Tessy ‘And I have had a crush on this one since I met her but she happily married and won’t leave her husband, Tessy’ Tessy smiled at the girl

‘Her loss, my gain’ Rissa laughed

Helen wanted to sucker punch her even her laugh was sexy and nice to listen to. No wonder Chuck fell for her, briefly her mind reminded her, if Rissa with all her beauty and charms could only hold his interest for a very short period then she didn’t have a chance that she could and would hold his.

Helen smiled at the girl coolly when she heard her name. She was curious to hear what he would introduce her as.

‘And this beauty here is Helen, she is... I am still figuring that out’

This time around Rissa didn’t smile. She dismissed Helen with a look and turned to Chuck

‘I was wondering if you could do me a favor’ she said to him

‘I am afraid my gift to your son is rather heavy, I will need your muscles Chuck’

 Rissa smiled that pure innocent smile of hers that won her the crown.

Chuck turned to the Helen and She watched him go but not before he turned back, starring at her intensely for a moment and Helen was lost in the sea green of his eyes but in this sea it didn’t matter if you could swim, a woman would willing drown in its tempting depth and alluring whispers and then he smiled at her. ‘Later’ he mouthed to her and winked. Helen heaved a sigh. How I love him, she said to herself, but it was useless because she was no beauty queen. .

Helen turned to her friends and tried to go inside

‘You are mistaken Tessy, they look cute together’

‘Don’t sell yourself short’ Nma said

‘I don’t want to talk about Chuck and his many women and why I could suddenly become the one he would choose’ she smiled at then ‘What happened is proof enough. He didn’t have to hug her, touch her, smile like she was the most beautiful woman on earth and his heart desire. I have been kidding myself’

 ‘Not so fast Helen’ Nma said

‘Are you going to tell us what is going on or not?’

Helen looked at them ‘I don’t know what is going on’ how could she tell them what she didn’t know, where did one begin to explain what she didn’t understand. She loved and wanted nothing like she wanted him and yet she was afraid, afraid of what would happen if it wasn’t enough, if he made her give him her all and didn’t give anything back in return, she would die, she thought with so much sorrow at the sadness of the finality of her thoughts. Loving him was a journey she could never return from for good or bad, for happiness or sadness, loving him would change her but what could she do, she had already begun the journey. She prayed he would meet her half way bearing some light to chase away the darkness of her thoughts.

Feeling down and tired she turned to her friends  ‘but this I can tell you here and now that I am irrevocably in love with a man that has nothing more than a holiday affair to offer me’ she didn’t know she was crying until she felt the tears roll down her cheeks

Nma pulled her close smiling

‘Helen love is a beautiful thing, it is not something you cry about or shoot me, this is the first of the many tears you would shed for him and over him and about him if you truly love him’

Helen heaved a sigh and cleaned her tears ‘I thought love made you feel beautiful and happy but all I feel is this incredible fear, confusion and pain’

‘yes and it doesn’t stop but it gets better when he finally realizes that he can’t live without you, when he finally speaks those three special words to you, then your happiness will be immeasurable’ Tessy said

‘So till then I am to remain miserable?’

‘till then you are to love him and be there for him but the truth is I know he feels something for you, it scares him to the point of denial but for how long if you know how to you can get him to see that you are meant for each other’

Helen nods ‘that’s sounds easy but how do you make a man like him see… don’t mind me. You saw the way he was with her, he totally forgot about the rest of us and about me.’ She heaved a sigh, she didn’t want to talk about this not now, not here. ‘The guests are here and the celebrant is not ready’

They laughed ‘haven’t you heard of fashionably late’ Nma laughed as they went in.

Chuck walked towards his room, after helping Rissa with her gift, a tricycle he was sure she could have handled alone. He chuckled it seemed that the news that he was single again was giving a lot of his exes hope anew. He shook his head at the casual way she had asked him about his relationship status. Rissa was beautiful and smart but whatever he felt for her ended when he couldn’t take how spoilt and demanding she was.  The only woman he wanted for now was Helen. He missed her already; he wanted her close to him. He needed one last kiss before the party began. This kind of need was foreign to him he thought as he opened the door and entered. Shouldn’t he check it, did he need this kind of distraction? He would soon go back to his base, could he go back and still be relevant in his club if he was hung up over a girl. A girl he didn’t want to have forever, he had nothing to offer but the moment. His friends didn’t know but he had sworn he would never marry. He had sworn he would never pass down his mother’s genes to the next generation. He didn’t kid himself that he was so different from his mother. A look at his lifestyle could tell. So what in essence was he offering her? Everyone believed she was the kind of girl you marry and he was not the marrying kind.

He closed his door as if he could close off his mind by doing that.

‘Been waiting for a long time for you’ startled he turned and stared at Star.

He recovered fast thanking God that Helen hadn’t come back with him or else how would he have explained this situation. He smiled at her ‘You could have called me’

She moved from the wall she was leaning on ‘I didn’t think about it’

‘So now I am here, what’s up?’

‘You and Helen I didn’t see that coming’

He grinned ‘Don’t Star’

‘Don’t what, don’t ask, don’t feel betrayed, and don’t get mad’

‘I am sorry if I hurt you but I don’t understand, we have not been anything but friends’

‘Of course that is because I would wait for you to act on your promises but each time you come home there is a different girl hanging on your hands and I would forget all the conversations we had on the phone. You go back to your base and then you remember me. It is merry go round but this time you hurt me. Helen is my friend you bastard!’

He heaved a sigh ‘I am sorry but I don’t get what I am being accused of. I never made any promises to you. So don’t put this on me, I teased and you teased me back. Yes we may have flirted a time or two but deep inside we are more friends than any other way’

‘You don’t tell your friends you want to kiss them; you don’t kiss your friends’

 ‘I didn’t realize you meant any of what you said over the phone, it was all game to me Star and then most times when I am back there is someone in your life how am I supposed to believe what you say when you never lack for male company whether I am around or not’

‘So you decided that Helen should be your next conquest since she never dates’

‘Helen is as much surprise to me as she is to you. I don’t know what I am doing with her but I am willing to see it to the end.’

Star looked at him, wiped her tears and straightened her clothes ‘well I guess it is as much my fault as it is yours, I was a stupid dreamer which is strange because I don’t believe in dreams.’

Chuck felt like kicking himself, he didn’t realize that she had built so much hope around their word game and he felt like an ogre. ‘I am sorry Star’ he said lamely for lack of nothing else to say

‘You should be’ then she smiled ‘this time around I hope you have a ring waiting somewhere for her. If you hurt her, your friends are going to come after you and maybe ostracize you’ she laughed with satisfaction. ‘Karma is a bitch’ she left with that.

Chuck sat down on the bed and heaved a sighed. Wouldn’t it be better to cut this off now that much had not transpired between them, no promises have been made yet? No hope built because the truth was, he was going to end up hurting her. It was a part of him he inherited from his mother. A part of him he had sworn would die with him.

Helen having resolved a way to handle Chuck hesitated at his door indecisive whether to enter or not, suddenly Star came out from the room, and their eyes met and held. Helen’s eyes narrowed with temper not at Star but at Chuck. What game was he playing? Did he think he could play two of them against each other, what about Rissa. Right timing Helen said to herself. Here she was thinking that she could make it work, that she could make him more than care for her, even love her enough to marry her. Here she was deciding that she would leave first thing tomorrow morning so she could get started on remembering her past. Here she was being faced with the reality that the man was nothing but a world class liar and womanizer.

‘Sheath your claws; he is all yours now if you know what the heck to do with a man of that caliber’

Helen stared at Star silently, determined that she would not fight her friend over a man who cared nothing for either of them.

‘Hey’ they both heard behind them. They both turned to find Rissa standing behind them.

‘This is becoming interesting’ Star smiled sweetly at Rissa

‘Does Chuck still use this room?’

Helen was too shocked to even answer the girl.

‘Yes he does’

Thank you’ Rissa said and began walking to his room.

‘But he is dressing up’ Rissa stopped to smile at Star

‘Perfect’ she said and winked at them as she knocked slightly and entered.

Star turned to Helen. Helen swore that she was not going to give her the satisfaction of seeing her angry. She walked away, moving on to her room.

‘Helen’ Star called to her

She turned ‘that is the man Chuck is. Women are forever after him, whether he wants them or not. If you are going to date him, you have to develop a thick back’

‘What happened now has nothing to do with a thick back or other women. What you did was low even for you’ she opened her door entered leaving Star staring after her.

She didn’t care to make sense out what Star said, all she cared was to leave here, to leave Chuck before she found herself roped in too tight that she could never get away without the ropes cutting her. She would endure the party and then she would leave. Either Star or Rissa was welcomed to him. They both could have him for all she cared. Helen slammed the door shut, shutting the stinging feeling that was spreading all over her heart.

Helen decided she was going to look sexy and alluring and drive his libido to the sky and then flirt with Dave all day long. It was more than he deserved. So she put on a white body suit and wore red and white checkered short flay skirt over it. She sat down and applied her makeup. When she finished and brushed out her waist length hair. She couldn’t believe that the sophisticated woman looking back at her was her. She refused to compare herself to Rissa or to Star both voluptuous beauties. She was only going to concentrate on enhancing her best features. She might not be as beautiful as her rivals but she had her charms. Rivals, was that what she was calling them now. She laughed bitterly. She was no one’s rival because she was no longer among those vying for his attention. She turned back to her makeup, she smiled genuinely she was caught up in her thoughts that she did not pay attention to what she was doing and it turned out magnificent. Wow she exclaimed, Yes Nma had given her a few pointer on applying makeup but this, this was more than a few pointers. Was she a makeup artist? She laughed and slipped her feet in white flat sandals. Eat your heart out Chuck she murmured and left the room.

When she got to the garden, there were children everywhere running around and parents were standing in groups sipping from their wine glass and chatting. Uniformed Waiters passed wine and fruit juice in trays. She smiled. Trust the Nma to do everything different. She saw Tessy and the others standing on the pavement chatting, she went to join them.

‘Wow’ Amber exclaimed ‘You look amazing’

Helen smiled ‘I decided on a good experiment with my makeup purse’

‘It becomes you. Always apply it this way’ Eva said

‘Thanks’ Helen smiled and looked around for Chuck she didn’t want to miss the look on his face when he would see  her nor did she want to miss the look on his face when he would see her with Dave.

‘Where is the celebrant?’ Helen asked

‘The last I saw his mother was chasing him all over the room trying to put some clothes on him’

‘Just like his father, when he was young, I could hardly get him to wear his clothes and when I do, he promptly removed them’ Rose said.

‘He must have been a handful’ Helen murmured absentmindedly.

Chuck stood at the door hidden by the dwarf trees. He was raging mad and feeling murderous. He couldn’t understand how Rissa ended up in his room. Was there no one to stop her? He was angry with the whole occupant of the house and especially with Uche’s security, which he was told was beefed up for today. It was more than alarming to come out from the bathroom to find Rissa on his bed and then to make matters worse she had smiled that her infuriating smile. How had he ever thought that smile was charming before? With only a towel round his waist there was so little he could but ask her nicely to get out oh but that had only given her the effrontery to walk up to him and tug at his towel.  Remembering was making him angrier by the minute. He needed to calm down before he approached anyone.

His eyes landed on the group he was going to join but he didn’t want to go to Nma and the rest with his temper hanging in balance. He saw her come out and he watched her smile at everyone.. Something deep and powerful tugged at his heart and he rubbed his chest. He made a move towards her but stopped. Did he not just promise himself he would leave her alone before he hurt her? Did he not just conclude that he would ignore the feelings she could so easily invoke in him. Fat good his pep talk to himself did if one look at her sent him on over drive, made him forget his temper. How could he resist her when she looked so slender, so achingly beautiful and so fragile with those huge brown eyes and heart stopping smile, long legs that seemed to go on for miles? How could she wear that short skirt, did she not realize what thought every man in the room would be having about her. Feeling possessive and suddenly angry when he noticed the admiring glances she was receiving from other men, pep talk be damned, he said and went to claim his woman.

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